Don't you bother!

goodbye, for now.

2008-10-08T18:53:00.002+08:00

Updates in Livejournal.
However, this blog will still stay and I'll still update my Twitter often.

Leave me a personal message on Msn and I'll see if I want to give it to you.
Muahaha xD

maybe i was just missing you

2008-09-30T22:08:00.003+08:00

I was washing or rather scrubbing th toilet -.-

Me: (using Mr Muscle to spray th dirt then just wash it off with water.)

Mom: Eh! Why never scrub?

Me: (with tht dumb look) Th instructions said tht I have to spray at th dirt then wait fr a few minutes. Then just wash off with water and th dirt gone!

Mom: Oh my God! Where got such thing? Must scrub one lah!

Me: Really lah! You read th instructions ah.

Mom: No no, go take th brush and scrub. It'll be cleaner tht way.

Me: Haiyaaa, but it still works. I try already lor!

Mom: (kept quiet and continue her work)

Me: (cursing in my heart) Wahlao, so troublesome ah! Tiring leh! Adek play comp and sleep only! Kakak also sleeping sia!!!!! Then me? Like maid lehhh!

Not only that la. I had to mop and vacuum and many more.

I should have studied in my room, then mum won't disturb me :b

Hahaha. But I figured it was okay since I didn't help much th week bfr.

Don't you miss playing bunga api (firecrackers i think)?

I used to play those with my brothers and neighbours when I was young.

But things really changed.

Hari Raya don't feel like Hari Raya anymore ):

I hope tomorrow will be fun :D

Anyway, SELAMAT HARI RAYA to all!!! ^^

why is imagination called imagination?

2008-09-29T16:56:00.003+08:00

Hari Raya is like what, Wednesday?!
Frankly, I'm really lazy to celebrate.
Th only thing I'm excited about is fooooooooood.
Hahaha, whose not?!
Cheezy BBQ Melts, LJS Combo 1, Mc Spicy, Double Chocolate, Strawberry Milktea, Tom Yum Ban Mian, Prima Deli Chocolate Waffle, Kebab, Brownies.
Ahhhh, I'm torturing myself -.-

Everybody was busy cleaning th house during th weekends.
Guess what I was doing?
I was 'studying' and sleeping th whole time.
Oh, I was blowing my nose every minute (not kidding).
I even brought one whole toilet roll to school today.
At th end of th paper, my desk was full of tissues too.
I think my grandma and sister caught my flu bug too.

There's 3 periods of school tomorrow. Whats th use of coming?
I don't intend to come.
I'll tell Mum that I'll help her tomorrow since I've been slacking so much drg th weekends.
:D

Anyway, Malay paper was okay.
Except for th fact that I have th possibility of scoring zero fr peribahasa.
I didn't study much, that's why.
I'm feeling so lazy to study nowadays ):

You guessed it right, I'm so bored.
Oh that reminds me that I have 2 books to finish reading.

bad day

2008-09-27T11:22:00.002+08:00

I'm not at my best. I'm not feeling good at all ): I can feel some heat in my throat and it hurts like argh! One of my nose is blocked. And my head is spinning like merry go round. I'm catching a cold soon. I just recovered fully like 2 weeks ago! Mum said its due to stress. I just need to endure till this monday. Please please make me feel better cause I can't afford to even get a grade 3 for Higher Malay. Yes, this is th first time ever I'm actually afraid of sitting fr my malay paper. You ask why? Cause Mdm Nor didn't give us any tips of what to study or what kind of topic will be tested fr Paper 1. She was even on leave on th last lesson before th exams! Yes, I know. We can't be depend on th teachers. Argh!

I just discovered that I got th facts wrong for my SS essay. I.am.bloody.mad.at.myself! I might lose 12 marks just like that ): I'm not putting hopes to go Korea anyway. But, 12 marks means a lot to me. I left one of th Bio essay question B.L.A.N.K! Fine, I have myself to blame. I couldn't think anymore what! But you know what, I'm glad these 2 papers are over :D

Hari Raya is coming very soon. With my condition like this, I'm obviously not looking forward to it. Th whole family dragged me to Geylang last night. I was cursing th whole time I was there. I Moreover, I wasn't feeling well and my stomach suddenly hurts. I already cleaned my room before exams. But now, there's a huge pile of books and papers on my desk. Which only means that I need to clean my room again ):

I have tuition at 12pm later and its already 11.45am.
I haven't had my shower.

(So long winded leh my post!)

take a step back and breath

2008-09-23T15:41:00.002+08:00

My energy is all drained out although its a short day. My lips are dry that I had to keep licking to keep it moist. Exams are in 2 days, I know that. I can't wait to get over this. I get a little happy whenever I hear Raye songs played on air. That's my only motivation for now. Cause I realised that I give up easily. I wish my life was more interesting. I wrote letters to myself for motivation. How pathetic! But it helps, actually. I get so tensed up these days.

I need to relax. I need to chill.

I'll take a nap before studying th most boring subject ever, Biology.

you want to exchange brains?

2008-09-20T17:29:00.003+08:00

My brain hurts so much!!!
There's so much memorising to do for Biology, Social Studies and History.
Biology and SS paper will be on th same day.
God, I don't know how I'll survive.
AND JUST SO YOU KNOW, I SUCK SO MUCH AT MEMORY WORK!
I don't know how some crazy people get to squeeze all th facts into their head.
STRESS STRESS STRESS!!

I've always hated Science.
I can never do well in Science.
I don't know what made me get into th Pure Science class.
Science is just not my thing.

This.Is.Just.So.Depressing!

But I don't want to disappoint myself.
Argh I need to scream!
I'll do my best. I'll not regret.

(I just used th computer for a bloody 10 minutes and I got nagged. Wtf, I need to relax too right?! I fcking need a break from everyone, please.)

HAPPY 15TH BIRTHDAY AMIRAH SHAFIE!! :D

pour some ice water on my face, please

2008-09-17T15:34:00.002+08:00

Bear with me, please. I need some air.

Th weather is really killing me. Rain, please come soon!
I've been getting hooked on books and it actually stopped me from studying.
But reading is relaxing and at th same time, it prepares me for English paper. Haha!
I dislike these 2 particular guys.
Can you guys stop being childish and grow up, please?
Your random and unnecessary comments do hurts, you know?
I'm not revealing their names even if you ask me personally. Go figure (:
Fadilah, Ruzanna and Mai didn't come today. I miss them ):
School is very very boring today.
I don't feel like I'm me today. I feel so wrong.
Mr Tan didn't come so we had 4 free periods.
I'll curse him if he change CE periods to Maths lesson >:(
I slept th entire time. But I'm still sleepy now. So you see how lazy I can get?
Biology SPA tmr. I'm really worried cause I'm really unprepared.
Th Jeritan Sepi song keeps on playing on Suria!
It makes me sad everytime I listen to it. Idk why. Haha!
I miss hearing Raye songs on th radio.
GUESS WHAT?! I just heard th first raye song on th radio now!!!
They can read my mind. Hahahah!
13 more days to Raye. How fast can this get?!
I'm excited, not for Raye. But for th freedom to eat. Argh, such a pig.
I can't wait for Exams to start. No no, you're wrong.
I just want it to be over AS SOON AS POSSIBLE.
I hate my hair. Its growing out of shape.
I need a haircut soon but I want to keep long hair. How?
I might just come to school with my bald head tmr.
Recess time is becoming laughing-at-your-kindergarten-pictures session.
Its really really funny. I miss my carefree life, where I don't have any worries.
Ilham have been my kindergarten, primary school and secondary school friend!
Hahahaha! So surprising right? I didn't know too.
Izyan, Nad and Siti were my kindergarten classmates too!!!!
Seriously, my memory suck cause I only knew all this when I saw th old photos.
I'm going to dig my photo albums later and have a good laugh at it.
Th weather is making me very very thirsty. Argh, endure!
This is such a long post but I feel like typing more.
I know I need to study but I really can't with th hot weather.
My flu came back again. Argh! It was just getting better!
I have tuition tonight. Yay!
We did English Mock Paper just now. It was crap!
Why must all th passages be about global warming/expedition/deforestation/ others?
Don't they have better passages tht don't make students sleep?
I think teachers like to see us flunk th paper D:
I think I need to slap myself.
I think you're bored reading this too.
Okay that's it. Bye!

i want milktea!

2008-09-13T21:58:00.003+08:00

I am so damn tired of studying/mugging/revising.
Tuition today wasn't fun cause I was very very sleepy.
I didn't get much into my head either.
I forced myself to wake up after sleeping for only 2 hours.
I managed to cover one chapter of Biology and 2 chapters of E maths.
I.am.satisfied.cause.I.finally.managed.to.discipline.myself.

(There's something wrong with th keyboard. Its so tiring to type.)

Thats it, I need to get my ass off this chair. Argh!

endureeeeeeeeeee D:

2008-09-10T16:08:00.002+08:00

My throat is so dry that it really hurts when I swallow my saliva.
I've been sneezing and blowing my nose.
I've been having stomachache since th last few days.
Argh, why now?!
I can't afford to skip school.
I'm strong I'm strong!

Btw, I was mad at myself for not studying for th last 2 days.
So, I must make up for it now.

):

let's have a break

2008-09-07T21:35:00.003+08:00

I am not happy!!!
Cause dad is mad at brother.
And how does this affect me?
He said that all of us won't be able to use th computer starting tmr ):
Argghhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!
Now you see why I'm unhappy?!
Not my fault at all, how unfair!
I know how to manage my time what, not like him!

So, this might be my last post until dad is kind enough to me.
Now I can't watch movies/dramas anymore.
At most, I'll just use it secretly :D

Everyone must be busy packing their bags or rushing on homeworks.
I really can't be bothered.
Well obviously, I haven't had enough of holidays.
Let's just hope that school won't be a bitch (:

Oh yes, I promised that I'll work hard right?
:D

bored like crazy

2008-09-05T21:54:00.002+08:00

(I don't look like me -.- Lack of sleep, I suppose)

Sorry for th overdue picture.
I just found th cable today -.-

2 days left before school starts again.
I'm definitely not looking forward to it.
I wasted my whole holiday relaxing and chilling.
But I'll really work hard, later. Hahaha!

I don't have anything to blog actually.
Bye.

Oh, I just updated my Friendster after sooooo long being dead.

give me a wake up call soon

2008-09-04T17:21:00.002+08:00

Its already Thursday! Which means that exam is getting nearer. I've been slacking too much but I think its okay. I know when to get serious. Its holiday after all, must make use of it :D Fadilah and me purposely went to Maths class 40 minutes late. But Mr Tan gave us work and only starts teaching at 10.45am. If I knew, I wouldn't have came so early. I didn't do th work given. Isn't it obvious? Most of us wasn't paying attention when he was teaching. As usual, he got kind of irritated and starts nagging like a grandfather.

After class, Sofeana, Fadilah and me went to catch 'Money No Enough' in th theaters. It was a last minute thing and that 6 bucks was my last few cash. But its okay cause it's been so long since I watched movies with them (: Th movie was so damn hilarious but th ending was really really sad. We got so cold after th show that we stayed in th warm lift for quite a long time.

There's tuition later. Its my turn to buy potato chips cause Fadee bought one yesterday. Hehehe! Tuition is always fun cause Kumar rocks but Principal suck ^^ I'm so tired and sleepy now but I have Bio assignment to finish fr tmr's lesson.

I don't know why I typed this way. I feel like a girl telling her grandmother how was her day -.- I feel so lazy, you don't have to read this.
Goodbye, have a nice day :D

your eyes can never lie

2008-09-02T17:38:00.002+08:00

I'm still not confident about doing Chemistry SPA next Tuesday.
I'm used to doing titration but I just can't do th calculations! :'(
Oh, you know what?
Jackson and Kevin must be th most annoying people I've ever met!
I think they feel some kind of satisfaction seeing me irritated! Argh!!
Sosial Studies lesson was fun, as usual ^^

Went to my optician again with Fadee and Sofeana.
We had th best LRT ride there! :D
(It makes me think about roller coaster. Its been so longgg!)
Checked my contact lens and my optician found something so damn amazing.

She was checking on my eye using th machine ah.
O: Do you have any stomach problems? Like often suffering frm stomachache or gastric?
Me: Uhh, sometimes la. But I every month surely have menstrual cramp.
O: Do you have any difficulties shitting?
Me: Hahaha, ya!
O: Oh okay. I can see everything through your eyes.
Me: Ah really?! Wowwwwww!
O: I just happened to see, so I asked you la.
Me: Wah, I didn't know that!
O: Can see that you have some stomach problem. Your stomach is weak.
Hahahaha! So, its true that eyes can't lie.
But I was kind of scared when I heard that.
(duh, whose not? -.-)

So, got home and slept.
I don't feel like studying today.
Still have tomorrow. Hahahah ^^

take a look at me now

2008-09-01T18:22:00.003+08:00

I was cleaning my study table just now.
And... I found some of my old stuffs.
I used to keep this diary where I'll paste all our photos and neoprints.
There were all kind of pictures. Decent, silly, stupid, ugly, crazy!
When I look at it again, I realised how much I miss my primary school days.
I only have a few close friends and that's th reason why I don't like going back to my primary school during Teacher's Day.
I don't have anybody to meet up with, you see.
If you don't know, I used to be a very very shy, quiet, ugly and innocent girl.
But things changed when I got into secondary school.
I don't know how I turned into a thick-skinned, loud and irritating girl.
Go on, laughhhhhhhhh. Cause I'm laughing at myself too.
Hahahaha!

But th point here is that, time pass by so fast.
I mean, I'll be a Secondary 4 student in a few months time!
Do I look like a Sec 4 student?
(WAIT! Don't answer that!)
I don't want to leave Unity yet.
I mean, I can't wait to leave secondary school and continue exploring th world.
But I can't bear to leave all th memories there!
Cause I now know that I have th best friends in th whole world.
They're th ones who changed me into who I am today.
And I'm happy with who I am (:

Few more minutes to buka! :D
(I've been craving for Hot Chocolate Cake dipped with Chocolate Syrup + Cookies and Cream Ice Cream!!)

"Love is never lost. If not reciprocated, it will flow back and soften and purify the heart."

happy mugging! xD

2008-08-31T15:43:00.003+08:00

Last night, I was searching for some motivational quotes to motivate myself.
But, I ended up in this page full of quotes which I could relate to.
And, non of them was motivational -.-

Here's some. I'll share th rest when I feel like it (:

One day you'll love me, the way I loved you.

One day you'll think of me the way I thought of you.
One day you'll cry for me, the way I cried for you.
One day you'll want me, but I won't want you.

You can close your eyes to things you don’t want to see.
But you can’t close your heart to things you don’t want to feel.

SELAMAT BERPUASA :D
(I still can't believe September's here!)

with no regrets

2008-08-30T14:29:00.035+08:00

Just came back from Flag Day.
Went to Sembawang and Bukit Batok.
It really made me smile when people put coins in my tin :D
I found out that men are more generous too! (;

Happy Teacher's Day! (:
Celebration with Mr Tan wasn't exciting/sad/fun/memorable at all -.-
Concert was rather boring and short.
We took a class photo but I can't upload it here.
It's in th built-in memory in my camera and I can't find th cable.
Aces Day was even more boring! -.-

I was looking for you-know-who th entire time.
Sadly, I didn't bump into him.
But its ~~not~~ okay (:
I had Mc Spicy and we headed to Hazirah's house.
I ended up sleeping thr.

Went home and slept again.
I was really lazy and tired to go fr th BBQ with th Sec 3 Express.
But I can't possibly skip it right.

(lots of pictures ahead)

Faris is th besttttttttt! :D

There were 150 satays! (:

Farah semangat ahhhhh! ^^

Thanks Bud for helping us light th fire! :D

Caught you on my cam!

Spot th flying ball! Th shuttle cock got stuck in th tree actually.

Cikgu Nora and Cikgu Fadilah came too!!! Gosh, I miss them so much!
Picture was taken before th rest came.

We also had a surprise birthday celebration for th Sept babies.
Happy Advance 15th Birthday Haziq, Maira and Amirah! xD

Then, Fizah got excited to play th skateboard.

And finally, she did it ^^V

Even Amirah was influenced by Fizah!

Stress Stress Stress!! :p

She's th bedroom gangsta!

We had ~~illegal gambling~~ uno game in th middle of th pavement. Hahaha!

That skinny girl can carry me!

See, Faris so hardworking until he sweat so much.

Sofeana so baik :p

Did you see somebody molesting herself?

Now you see somebody scaring Zaf!

Sof and Mubin playing badminton. Heheheheheh

Thanks Sof, Ruz, Amirah, Syahirah, Ely, Maira, Pure, Zaf, Farah, Fizah, Iman, Fiqah, Fadee, Nad Tariq, Mubin, Haziq 3/5, Haziq 3/6, Irwan, Ilham, Faris, Luqman, Budiman, Cikgu Nora and Cikgu Fadilah for coming. (I hope I didn't miss out anyone!)

Its really hard organising this BBQ. So, I thank th rest fr helping and cooperating (:
Although this BBQ caused me a lot of stress, I can't deny I had a whole lot of fun.
And I hope you guys had fun too.
Sorry for th chasing-you-for-money and sorry if you didn't enjoy yourself ):
Cause we tried our best {:
Oh Oh!
I hope th th Sept babies were surprised with th surprise birthday cake. Hahaha!
And I hope this bonded us even more? Haha!

When I was otw home and on th bed, I received some messages thanking us for th BBQ.
I swear it really warmed my heart.
Thank you so much :D

disappointment, limewires, happy advance teacher's day

2008-08-28T16:27:00.005+08:00

I woke up really late, rushed to school with an ugly umbrella and got wet along th way.

But I shouldn't have attend school cause we only had 3 periods today.
All th other teachers were absent!

#

(You'll know what I'm talking about if I trusted you.)

God,
I'm really sick of this whole thing.
I was bloody disappointed when I heard all that.
I can't believe my best friend have been putting up an act.
It hurt me even more after knowing all these.
Cause honestly, I know I don't deserve to be treated this way.

Humans are so deceiving.
People get so easily influenced and they don't think twice when they talk.
Spare a thought for others, is that so hard?

After all th efforts that we've put in,
this is what we got.
Its really really unfair for us.
If I knew this would happen, I wouldn't have spared a thought for all of you!

Tell me straight in my face.
You don't have to bitch behind my back.
I've had enough of disappointment.
But I still hope you would prove me wrong.

I won't ever trust anybody so easily again.

I'm nice to you.
But who knows that I might hate you.
Even if I dislike you, I won't show it.
Cause I don't have th heart to tell you th truth.

(I don't fcking know why I am even thinking about how you feel!
Cause you never spared any thought about my feelings!)

#

I seriously miss all of you!
I miss baking our traditional cookie for Teacher's Day.
I miss all th weird sounds that Soon Keng and Ruban did.
I miss getting into trouble with all of you.
I miss folding 1000 paper cranes together.
I miss th class camp.

I JUST MISS ALL TH LIMOES! ):

time to hit the books!!!!

2008-08-25T19:04:00.003+08:00

I'm very disappointed with my CA results. But, it actually motivates me to really start studying hard for End of Year. I only got 2 bloody distinction ): & th rest are Cs. Arghhhh, not forgetting that I failed A Maths. My malay results suck so much! (All because of Cikgu Nor lor!) Haha, joking. Its my fault anyway, cause I was half asleep while doing th test.

SO, FROM NOW ON, I'LL PROMISE TO WORK HARD AND START REVISING! I WRITE MY GOAL AND PUT IT UP ON MY BOARD SO THAT EVERYTIME I WANT TO STUDY, I'LL BE MOTIVATED. I'LL STOP BEING LAZY. I'LL PUT UP SOME MOTIVATIONAL QUOTES TOO. LASTLY, I WON'T DISAPPOINT MYSELF :D

So, now you see how serious I am?

But sometimes, I just wonder. What do I want in life? What is my goal in life? What do I want to be when I grow up? I don't even know what's my talent lah!
BUT, this won't discourage me. For now, I'll study hard.

(wah, i'm so amazed that i'm so serious! hehe!)

i'll stop worrying and i'll start being happy

2008-08-24T15:07:00.002+08:00

Its been raining so heavily nowadays.
I even had to sleep with my sweater on plus a blanket for my feet last night.
Please, please pray hard Friday won't rain :D

My INDIAN tuition teacher said "Stop it seh!" to Iman and Fizah.
We laughed non-stop. Hehehehe!
(guess who taught him!)

Chalet with cousins was awesomeeeeeeeeeeee :D
I ate so much :/

I'm sure next week's gonna be a fun and relaxing week.
Hahaha!
OH OH!
I need to satisfy all my cravings by next week.
Farah's joining me! C:

MIO Tv rocks!
Th whole family have been doing movie marathon th whole weekend!

hug a bear when you're sad

2008-08-22T22:34:00.002+08:00

Weekends are here!!! :D
I miss tuition. Hahaha!

(actually, i forgot what i want to type)

OH YES!!!
I'm so super damn excited for th BBQ this coming Friday.
Why why why?!?
Cause Cikgu Nora's coming downnnnnnnnnnnnn :D
So, you can tell how happy I am right?
Hahaha!

Guides meeting was all about games.
Drawing-without-talking game.
'Volleyball' match.
Scouts and their Olympic torch.
Hahaha, it was quite fun overall.

That's th happier news.

I'm still confused though.
I can't tell who I really am.
I want to know how I really feel.
I don't want to put up an act in front of you.
I'm so indecisive! D:

I miss (A), (B), (C).
Haha, go figure.

Oh yah,
Cheer up, Ruzanna!
I don't like to see you sad.

roses have thorns too

2008-08-21T20:52:00.004+08:00

I feel so damn relieved cause there's no more test this term! :D
September holiday is coming, hooray!
Even though there's classes, I still like th fact that its a holiday.

Next week will be last week of school!
Ahhhhh, get report card :/

There were 5 free periods today :D
I think 3/6 is crazy over DJ Max.
Hahahaha!
3/6 loves to irritate Mdm Mok too :D
But she's too patient to be angry with us -.-
I didn't know that we're supposed to adopt a plant?

I think I laughed so much these days :D
There's so much to laugh about.
Hehehehe!

(see, got so many of :D also!)
8D

triple birthday wishes on every 19th aug.

2008-08-19T21:07:00.004+08:00

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY TO MY DEAREST SISTER :D
Legal age already ah!
Stop being so fierce. Be a happy girl like me (:
Take care of yourself during th camp!
(Btw, you love my version of th birthday song right? :b)
Love ya! <3

HAPPY 5TH BIRTHDAY TO TH CUTEST COUSIN :D
You're th cutest thing ever!
Stop fighting over PSP with your elder brother.
I'll pinch your cheeks soon [;

HAPPY 15TH BIRTHDAY TO HAFIZ :D
I want your brains! ):
Stay happy okay! :D

#

Today is not a happy day ):
I rush like mad cause I woke up at 7.45am.
Then my eyes damn pain and my hair damn messy.
Mr Tan came in th class in th morning to scold us -.-
Then PE lesson play softball but it rain halfway.
My hand so weak, cannot throw far ball. Frustrating ah!
Th ball hit my thigh, damn pain sia!
I crack my knee but I only felt th pain during recess.
I felt so damn offended by someone D:
Now I don't like you. But sometimes, I'm still okay with you.
So, now tell me how am I supposed to feel!

So that's th end of my story.

go on and take a bow

2008-08-18T18:04:00.002+08:00

All these years, It has always been You.
But I'm glad that I'm one step closer to unlocking this heart.

School was absolutely wonderful! :D
NO MATHS WHAT, OF COURSE FUN AH!
I just hope that he won't rush to finish up teaching us all th topics.
(:

Softball for PE tomorrow, I'm excited.
I want to hit Fadee/Sofeana in th stomach.
It'll be interesting to see her reaction and how she will take her revenge.
^^V

Have a nice day, everyone! [:

truth hurts so much

2008-08-17T15:43:00.004+08:00

I can't deny I miss NDP Trainings ):
Guides meeting now are so boring.
But, I'm left with 2 more meetings before CCA stand down.

Something to look forward to :D
I didn't touch th books at all during th weekends.
Forget it, I'll get serious when I feel th pressure.
There'll be so many Maths periods tomorrow D:
I'm so sick of this never ending cycle.

I don't know why I get pissed off so easily.
I don't like being hot tempered.
But I get fed up every single time things don't go how its supposed to be.
I seriously need to learn how to be patient.
Sorry, I'm very stubborn.

my malay teacher is a big time bitch.

2008-08-15T21:32:00.003+08:00

(image above has no link with my post)

Apologies for th lack of updates.
(I still update my Twitter though)
I've been really busy with lots of test.
Just 2 more test next week and I'm done!
End of Year is coming very soon.
I know what I'm supposed to do but I can't stop procrastinating.

This week is really hectic.
Test results wasn't satisfying at all.
Except for th fact that I passed my A Maths for th first time in my life.
Tell me why I can't be bothered with bad results!

My CURRENT Malay teacher is a bitch!
What's up with comparing us with others?!
Is being bias and irresponsible your hobby?
Judging us when you're not even with us fr a term!
Insulting us instead of encouraging!
Come on! What's up with all these shits?!
I WANT CIKGU NORA BACK, PLEASE!

You can never stop these tears from flowing.
Something's missing and I'm still figuring it out.
I've been dying to get sick.
I seriously need a break.

longer holiday, please ):

2008-08-12T16:31:00.003+08:00

(the focus is on th famous amos cookie, btw.)

Pure gave me this and I can't bear to eat it. Hahaha!
Thanks dear {:

Th nurse in th dentist van is so friendly, I like :D
Softball was fun and dangerous too.
Imagine if that softball (actually damn hard lor th ball!) hit your head.
I think you'll faint ah.
It hit my stomach, damn pain! D:

Anyway, went to study with Pure and Ruz yesterday.
Cwp was damn pack and we ended up in Gelare.
I finally satisfy myself with th waffle ice cream ^^
Then, met Crystal, Mai, Hafiz and JiaWei after their movie ended.
Ate @ Banquet, bought drinks @ Starbucks and home.
Got changed and went out with Ruz again.

Haziq got hospitalised. So shocking! Hahaha.
Oh! This reminds me to text him to get well soon :D

LOTS OF TEST THIS WEEK, I DON'T LIKE!

Gelare, Starbucks

2008-08-11T21:18:00.014+08:00

Meet my lovelies! :D

Ruz look taller with her Ben 10 slipper! :p

Spot Pure and me!

I think I can fit into this lor!

Coincidentally, he wore yellow too!

I miss going out with Sofeana ):

(I'm lazy to elaborate!)

2008-08-09T23:10:00.002+08:00

HAPPY 43RD BIRTHDAY, SINGAPORE! :D

This year is not exciting at all. Why?
Cause I'm feeling all awful th whole day.
Since my body don't feel good, I decided to stay at home.
Watched th Ndp Performances on tv.
Nothing so exciting this year.

I really can't find any words to describe how I'm feeling.
Have you ever felt like something is so wrong but you don't know what is it?
Have you ever wanted to say something but those words just don't come out of your mouth?
Have you ever felt like crying but there's nobody to wipe your tears for you?
Have you ever felt like you're not yourself?
Have you ever felt so afraid to let others know why you're down?
If you do, then you'll know how I feel right now.

Tears just flow down your cheek unexpectedly, eh?

Its just my period and I miss my lil brother.

2008-08-08T20:45:00.019+08:00

I was praying hard it wouldn't rain.
Thank God it didn't rain :D
I'm glad that everything is over.
I had enough of marching after 2 years of joining Ndp.
But yeah, I'll still miss marching though ):

Parade went well.
Everyone did an excellent job, really!
Its worth th trainings that we had.
Dance was fabulous too.
After sing dance sing dance, watch games.

Had Tom Yum Ban Mian for lunch.
Waste money, I didn't finish it.
Played hide and seek with Farah, Iman, Fadee, Amirah, Syahirah, Liyana and Pure.
Funny things happened. Haha!
Everybody had to go off except Farah, Pure and me.
So, we joined Crystal, Mai and th guys.
Waited and waited.
Then we went to Warren with Crystal, Mai, Pure, Farah, Alvin Ho, Alvin Tan, Shu Jun, Faris, Hafiz, Jiawei and Tariq.
Camwhored while they played soccer.
We made friends with this kids.
One of them kept looking at Jia Wei/Alvin Ho. Hahhaha damn funny!
I fell into th jacuzzi too! D:
Super silly la! I got half of my body wet -.-
Oh, there's a truth-or-dare incident too.
Everyone left home except Farah, Pure, Hafiz, Alvin Tan, Jia Wei and me.
After all that, I got really tired.
Had a nap while th boys played soccer and Pure and Farah went camwhoring again.
Then Pure, Farah and me left and went to Lot 1.
Reach home around 6.45pm

Parents and youngest brother is at Bintan now ):
I miss my brother alrdy. Hahaha!

Nurul has a new best friend. See whose beside her on th right. ^^

Farah and Pure found a new function in my camera.
And this is what they took (:

2008-08-08T19:05:00.064+08:00

@ Warren, Shujun's house.

He did this trick. Damn coooool!

I didn't pee okay!

I fell down in th jacuzzi and half of my body was wet.

They're th ones who played truth or dare.

Damn cute kids! Th first girl kept looking at Jiawei/Alvin Ho sia. Haha!

They look so wrong!

I'm th bully here ^^

Farah's th drama queen!

There's more pictures. Look out for th next post! (:

i thought you've forgotten me

2008-08-02T19:02:00.003+08:00

Sports Fiesta was fantastic.
But also tiring!
3/6 is bonding very well too! :D
Congratulations to Mai's team for getting 4th place.
Even though there's no medal, 3/6 is still proud of you.

I still miss Limewires though.
I can't wait for th coming class chalet/camp ^^

The alumni came down just now.
I suddenly miss you-know-who.
(btw, ytd wasn't my luck!)

I'm bloody exhausted.

bear with me

2008-07-31T18:38:00.003+08:00

sad + hungry = ANGRY!
I hate th weather. Its killing me!

Why is th time passing by so slowly?!

I hate CE lessons cause its totally pointless.
I find it very annoying when Mr Tan uses microphone.
HIS VOICE ALREADY LOUD ENOUGH WHAT?!

I kept on falling asleep whenever its Maths/Chem/Biology lesson.
Its funny looking at how some people sleep though.
Hahaha!

I'm motivated to get grade 1 for Humanities. Why?
CAUSE WE'RE GOING TO KOREA NEXT YEAR!
Obviously there's limited places ):
I prefer Japan though.

Imagine if we have an overseas trip for Maths!
Hahahahaha!
I wonder if I'll be motivated to study.

My right eyes hurts. I don't know why.
I think its because of contact lens -.-

I'm really so sick of Ms Soh.
I got nagged when its not even my fault!
Its her own bloody fault!
She don't even understand how tiring we are because of trainings.
She expects us to wear Full U every Friday.
I AM VERY IRRITATED.

Hot Fudge, Sliced Fish Horfun, Ramlee burger, LJS combo 1, Cheese Fries, Mango Ice Blended, Brownies, AYAM PENYET!!!!

Go ask Ruz and Zak how irritating I was during Maths lesson.
I kept on tempting them with food.

i don't want to be normal. i want to be special too.

2008-07-30T16:32:00.003+08:00

I think I hate you for shutting up.

(Hear_Desing_Tee_by_mywonderart)

I skipped today's Ndp Rehearsal.
Its not on purpose. I had a really bad stomach cramp.
Took cab home which left a hole in my pocket.
I could have used th 5 bucks to eat Mc Spicy.
But its okay, since th weather was very hot and I can't stand th pain anymore.

Its been so long since I reach home at 3pm.
I had so many dreams last night. Haha!

I feel guilty for skipping Ndp cause somebody will have to replace me fr today.
I hope th girls do their best.
I hope Pure won't be stress out because of them.
Yesterday, had extra training for th girls contingent.
Thanks so much for your help Crystal (:
YES, I AM THAT WORRIED OKAY!

I got A for Chemistry, History and E Maths.
I passed Biology when I expected a 1-digit mark.
Hip hip hooray! :D
But, I failed my English Comprehension Test by 1/2 mark. Bloody hell!
I bet I'll fail A Maths too.

I need to get some sleep now.

Weekends are coming soon. Endure! :D

note to self: stop pretending!

2008-07-27T16:25:00.003+08:00

Sunday is so boring.
Madrasah was crap cause I felt really insecure.
I forgot to bring my hp along you see.

I miss going out.
Ever since school started, my life is so busy.
I feel like watching midnight movie. Its been so long ):
I hope it'll rain heavily tmr.

There's A Maths test on Wednesday.
I doubt I'll have any time to study next week.
I didn't even bring back my book to revise.
Serve me right.

I've been slacking so much this weekend.
Its okay, cause I work hard during weekdays alrdy.
Hahaha!

I want to eat LJS Combo 1, Ayam Penyet, Mee Bakso, Crayfish Pasta @ Pizzahut, Nachos, Cheese Hotdog, Tom Yum Banmian, Ferrero Rocher Dark Chocolate.
See, I'm too bored.

I can't stop cursing myself.
God, give me some strength to accept my weaknesses.

Oh anyway, I feel so lonely sia! ):
(this is random)

give me a break

2008-07-26T21:08:00.002+08:00

I finally had th time to blog.
My schedule was so tight plus tiring! ):

Happy Belated Birthday, Liyana!
<3
(sorry for th late present!)

NDP Training drains out all my energy!
I was too tired with school, homework, test, ndp training, tuition, religious class.
God, I hope this ends soon.

I miss th computer so much :D

NDP Training was okay. But you know, some things just piss me off.
I won't complain so much cause my job is easy ^^
I pity Pure D:

For today, went to tuition, Bishan and Beach Rd with Nurul.
I rushed like mad to tuition cause I thought I was late.
In th end, Iman and Fizah came even later than me -.-
Went straight to meet Nurul.
Trained to Bishan. And guess what?!
Th trip there was wasted.
Didn't collect th badges cause of some reasons.
Ms Soh only said "sorry for th wasted trip there."
Argh, I won't travel so far for nothing ever again!

Next was Beach Rd. Took th wrong train. Hahaha :/
Went round and round for our boots.
Got it for $25 then trained to Outram.
Th shop that Nurul wanted to go wasn't thr anymore. Hahaha!
So, dropped off at Gombak fr her pants and our Takoyaki.
Arrived home near 8pm.

Note to self: Stop dreaming! Stop fantasizing! Stop procrastinating!

I never want to feel this way.
Cause I know I'm nothing to you.
I'll never wish for something I can't get again.
Give me a slap cause I seriously need to wake up from this dream.

look at th girl with a broken smile

2008-07-22T21:57:00.002+08:00

My IC photo is ugly. I can't believe I'll be holding on to it for my whole life.
I can't do my A Maths homework. This is really frustrating!
I didn't copy down Mr Tan's examples, thinking that I could remember everything.
& now, I don't even have any idea on how to start th question!
I have tons of Malay homework to finish up.
But I'm not motivated to do it.
Mdm Nor didn't collect our past homeworks.
This makes me even more lazy to do all her assignments.
I can't do slow march. Idk why th heck I decide to take that position in th first place.
Its so stressful to know that everyone else can do it nicely except me.
I don't know if tuition really helps me.
Cause I can't seem to do all my homeworks on my own.
I don't want to waste my parent's money.

I'm mad, angry, frustrated at myself for some reason.
I can't believe I'm so evil and dumb and irresponsible!
I feel so bad. Really really bad! ):
I don't know how to make things right.
And it seem to late to change everything now.

JUST MAKE ME LAUGH AGAIN!

now you know why we love her <3

2008-07-20T16:22:00.002+08:00

This is for th 3HML students. Read th bold ones (:

Nora says:
Salam Zuran...
ZURAN; says:
waalaikumsalam cikgu! :D
Nora says:
BAgaimana sekolah kelas sekarang?
ZURAN; says:
umm, kelas cikgu nor?
Nora says:
mana-manalah
ZURAN; says:
boleh lah, cuma bila kelas tambahan, cikgu nor tk dtg. dah 2 minggu, tk ada kelas
Nora says:
Cikgu Yatim ambil awak kan? Cg Nor ada oral exam di sekolah lain sampai akhir bulan ni.
ZURAN; says:
entah. kami pon keliru tentang siapa yang ajar kami sekarang
Nora says:
Kalau Cg Nor tak ada, awak belajar sendirilah. Buat tugasan yang saya beri dan semak sendiri.
ZURAN; says:
Hahaha, kita tdk ada discipline :/
Nora says:
Salah awaklah. Saya dah beri tak nak gunakan.... kalau saya tahu tak beri langsung. Biar padan muka awak semua..
ZURAN; says:
Hahaha! sampai hati cikgu!
Nora says:
Siapa supercow
ZURAN; says:
Its just that we don't feel that we have enough guidance in sch.
ZURAN; says:
supercow itu fadilah
Nora says:
sebab itulah saya tak sampai hati nak buat awak semua macam tu...
ZURAN; says:
awwwww, sayang cikgu :D
Nora says:
fadilah msn saya pada hari Rabu tapi saya tengah sibuk . Bagi tahu dia maaflah tak jawab soalan...
ZURAN; says:
Saya rasa macam kami tk prepared for o levels, compared to Sec 4s.
Nora says:
awak tak ada kerja sekolah ke?
ZURAN; says:
Ada, berlambak. Sekejap lagi saya buat
Nora says:
U will need to do a lot more on your own. Fikirkan kalau awak tak buat apa-apa persiapan, tentu yang rugi diri sendiri...
Nora says:
JAngan tunggu guru, have your own initiative. Kalau tak nak buat untuk diri awak, buatlah untuk cikgu awak yang bimbang tentang keputusan awak tu...
ZURAN; says:
Hahaha. We won't disappoint you :D
Nora says:
I'm sure you will not dissapoint me. But you need to advice the rest too. THey need all the motivation that they can get. Help each other by reminding each other. Rather than you keep thinking that there is no teacher willing to sacrifice their time and effort on all of you.... Make full use if the time now to do as much before it is too late. Right now it is never too late...
ZURAN; says:
Yeah, I'll keep your words! :DD
Nora says:
Think positive and stay positive. I have faith in all of you.. Keep your mind and soul sane, ok...
ZURAN; says:
Yes I will :D bila cikgu akan pulang?
Nora says:
Next year...saya mula mengajar. By November I'm back in school. But more for planning for next year...
ZURAN; says:
Oh i see. Our papers will be in november too.
Nora says:
I'll be back to give all of you moral support
ZURAN; says:
Yay! We'll be looking forward to it! Haha
Nora says:
Is Sofeana with us?
ZURAN; says:
I just added her.
YAANAA says:
hehe .
*
* nerdeerawr! has been added to the conversation.
*
ZURAN; says:
itu, nadhirah
nerdeerawr! says:
cikgu!
Nora says:
Ya, nadhirah. Awak ok?
nerdeerawr! says:
hahaha ok. hahaha cikgu pula?
Nora says:
DAh lama ok. Kadang-kadang KO'
YAANAA says:
haahaa
cian cikgu !
nerdeerawr! says:
aww. ingat kami tentu happy!
ZURAN; says:
haha!
ZURAN; says:
bukan happy, risau ade lah!
nerdeerawr! says:
lol!
Nora says:
Zuran awak masih ingat kata-kata saya kan? Please uar-uarkan ya...
ZURAN; says:
Yes, I saved this conversation. Haha
YAANAA says:
uar-uarkn tuh ape ?
ZURAN; says:
hahah, i think spread ah
Nora says:
KAmus mana?
ZURAN; says:
HAHAHAH!
nerdeerawr! says:
haha kamus pat skola!!
nerdeerawr! says:
=x
Nora says:
Siapa suruh tak bawa balik, cg suruh ke?
YAANAA says:
hehe .
ZURAN; says:
tk bawa ke skolah, salah. tk bawa pulang pon, salah. hahaha!
YAANAA says:
aiyo, nnty cikgu marah ! haahaa
ZURAN; says:
hahah!
Nora says:
KEna pakai logik. Mana yang perlu di bawa ke sek or rumah? Kalau tak pun beli lagi satu habis masalah.
ZURAN; says:
hahaha!
YAANAA says:
haahaa.
dgr tuh ckp cikgu !
YAANAA says:
hehe
Nora says:
Tak kerja lain asyki nak ketawa je????
nerdeerawr! says:
best pe! kan hati senang. hahaha
Nora says:
KAta tadi risau.
nerdeerawr! says:
cikgu, tu hari oral.. saya cakap "cool" -.-
ZURAN; says:
HAHAHA! betol tu
Nora says:
Cool sampai mengigil ke atau seronok nak giler?
nerdeerawr! says:
hahaha cool as in trend terkini macam cool ...
saya sebut "cool" .. kn perkataan inggeris
nerdeerawr! says:
hahahaha
Nora says:
OKlah saya tengah pening kepala ni nak rehat dulu. LAin kali kita sambung.
YAANAA says:
hehe
ouhk cikgu
YAANAA says:
rest well !
nerdeerawr! says:
ok. jaga baik-baiK!
ZURAN; says:
bye! see you soon!
nerdeerawr! says:
mimpi kita ;D
nerdeerawr! says:
kami kita -.- pape la
Nora says:
Bye! Love you all
nerdeerawr! says:
<3
ZURAN; says:
don't forget us. LOVE YOU TOO!

hide me behind a big piece of cardboard.

2008-07-20T15:22:00.004+08:00

I'm not going to say how badly we screwed up yesterday's performance.
Things didn't go as planned.
I'm just glad that everything is finally over :D

Weekends don't feel like weekends anymore ):
I slept th moment I reach home yesterday.
& I can't seem to stay awake in Madrasah w/o music.

My brain's not functioning well.
I can't remember any homework given.
I can't remember th number of test going to be held next week.
All I want is to sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep!

I have not studied for any test.
I feel that I'm so far behind than th others in class.
I can't be bothered nowadays.
Argh, I need to change!!!!!

I'm angry at myself for slacking so much!

I'm not looking forward to th next few weeks.
School, homework, tests, tuition, Ndp trainings.
Damn, I don't know if I can survive.

gadis ayu! that's not my name!

2008-07-18T23:10:00.003+08:00

Today was fun! :D
But it was frustrating at th same time.
Rehearsal was rather disappointing.
Before our turn to perform, we went to th music room to practice again.
We did quite well in there.
But when it comes to performing in front of th audiences,
BOOOOOM! We screwed up big time!
We were supposed to practice again after th whole thing.
BUT SOME ASS JUST HAD TO GIVE EXCUSES/RUN AWAY!
This really piss me off.
For God's sake, is it so hard to cooperate for once?!
So in th end, we slack and sleep and play inside th Music room instead.

Had KFC for lunch with Iman, Fadee, Sof, Zaf, Crysta, Mai.
Then we went to library as usual.
Stayed there till like 5pm.
And all along, this song, Gadis Ayu just had to be in my head.
Iman, Fadee and even Sof were addicted to tht song.
Till now, its still in my head!
Hahahaha! All thanks to Fizah.

I just remembered that I still have not register for my IC,
and th last date will be on Tues :/
Ahhhhhhh!

starving!

2008-07-17T16:45:00.002+08:00

It feels so long ever since I updated this blog.
Sorry, I was busy, tired and lazy too.

Monday
I can't remember what we did. School was as per normal.
Had a discussion session with Sec 3s CE Monitor and Chairperson.
It wasted my time but I got to skip 45 mins of Maths! (:
Then, had Tom Yum BanMian at Food Culture.
(I'm craving for it now!!)
Oh! Thanks Eddy for th Toblerone :D

Tuesday
Volleyball was funnnnnn! :D
Crystal got hit by th balls so many times. Hahaha!
Went to Mac after school to finish up Maths homework.
Then it was our Malay LC.
Sat in th room for 1/2 hour listening to Ria before th whole thing started.
I hope I can score well for this paper [:
Then, it was Mac again. Studied for E Maths Test.
Reach home at 7.30pm.
Its really irritating when almost everyone in th house nags at you!
Especially when you're really exhausted! Arghhh!

Wednesday
Mr Tan was very very angry at our class.
He keeps on nagging non stop! Even worse than my grandmother!
Mr Ng was really funnnnnny! Hehehehe!
I enjoyed his lesson for th first time ever.
I hope I can at least pass my E maths test.

Thursday/Today
I'm so exhausted! D:
Mr Tan didn't come today, as expected.
Cause it seems like he won't come sch after th day he got angry with our class.
We got to know from Mdm Khamilia that Mr Tan actually had high blood pressure.
Haha, are we THAT bad?!
Mdm Aishah didn't come too. Its been, I think 2 days.
I don't miss Biology, I hope she won't come tmr too. Hehe!
Mdm Nor didn't turn up for HML after-school class again.
This is th 2nd time! This makes me miss Cikgu Nora even more ):
I can't wait to break my fast. I'm starving! Hahaha

arigato! :D

2008-07-13T18:24:00.003+08:00

Thank you Sofeana, Ruzanna, Fadee, Iman, Fizah, Farah, Crystal, Maira, Liyana, Amirah, Syahirah 3/7, Syahirah 3/6, Zaf, Nad, Mus, Khadijah, Irwan and Jackson.
I love th card and th presents too!
Thanks Syamirah for th sweet keychain!

Rehearsal was disappointing. 3/6 is not united ):
Came a little late for CCAC meeting. Sorry!
I'll be th scorer for Sports Fiesta. Hehe!
Ruz, Fadee, Iman and me came up with an idea for our RHD performance.
I hope it'll work :D
I need money badly!
Next week will be a busy week.
I have not studied for E Maths Test.
Its already Monday tomorrow, so fast!
I got a little emotional at Madrasah just now. Hahahaha!
I need to pass E Maths Test!!!

I need to get my heavy ass off from this seat.

2008-07-11T22:48:00.002+08:00

I don't know why every teacher is extra naggy today!
Made us stand with th fan off!
Nag about our attitude!
Made us switch seating arrangements!
I was so frustrated with th new seating arrangements.
I cursed a lot.
But oh well, I'll just make do with it for now.
Let's hope I'll concentrate more and stop eating in class.

During recess, Sofeana and Ruz left me alone and go canteen first siaaa ):
When i went down, they sang me a belated birthday song (:
So embarassed!
I got a box full of chocolates! 8 bars of chocolates to be exact.
You guys sure want to see me fat next week eh!
A slice of chocolate cake tooooo!
& Crown faded blue skinnies!
Thank you very much to those who paid for it.
(I haven't got th card. I'll name you when i got it.)
:D

I did horribly for drill! ):
Its so pressurizing to do drill with th scouts.

Slacking at Mac was fun.
But it was embarrassing toooo D:
I rushed home for no reason,
cause in the end, there's no ngaji (Crystal pronounced it as NAGAJI!)

Okay bye, I'm so long winded.
Ccac Meeting, RHD Rehearsal tomorrow! D:

cry with me

2008-07-10T19:27:00.005+08:00

There's too much things to say.
So many things bugging me.
So many doubts.

Its so hard to push away this feeling.

I'll sort my mind out.

2008-07-09T22:25:00.003+08:00

I love E-learning cause we don't have to drag our ass to that stinky school. I didn't submit my English assignment, who cares. I'm ready to give all kinds of excuses to Mr Ng.

I totally screwed up my Malay Oral! The topic was about seni budaya. That was my biggest fear ever and guess what, it really was th topic for today! Tell me, how worse can my day get! ):
I went to Mac then to Pizzahut. I wasn't tempted at all, surprisingly!

I nearly forgot that I had tuition today. I was bullied so badly by Fadee at tuition! ): After an hour focusing, we lost our concentration and started to play around. I'll have my revenge back on Saturday :p

I'll be nice for now. So read this (:

It really annoys me on how people acted so big. I mean, come on! Have you ever think twice of what you actually typed? You might not realise it, but indirectly, you might have hurt some innocent people. Money, numerous friends, pretty face, expensive stuffs don't make you cool if you have a fcked up attitude!
I know your true colours now.
I don't like you!

If you think its you, then most probably its really you.

2008-07-08T18:51:00.002+08:00

I feel so uneasy and I don't know why! Maybe its because of tmr's Malay Oral :/ I'm really terrified. I'm afraid I'll be tongue-tied tomorrow. Then the examiner and me will play a staring game. I need so much more practices but I don't know why I can't be bothered. In fact, I really can't be bothered with anything these days. Go ask Crystal! I eat so much these days! I'm gonna grow fat soon. Thank God there's e-learning tomorrow and Thursday. I need to ring up Pure/Farah soon to get some info about their oral just now. Omg, i don't know why I'm super nervous right now!!!

KEVIN IS SUCH AN ASSHOLE! REALLLLLLLLY! HE KICKED MY WALLET ON THE FLOOR AS IF ITS A SOCCER BALL! THEN, MY WALLET TURNED REALLY REALLY GROSS THAT I'M SO DISGUSTED WITH IT. DAMN DIRTY SIA. HE KEPT ON BULLYING ME TODAY. HE TRIED TO TAKE AWAY MY PRESENT, MY WALLET. WHAT ELSE AH?! WAHLAO, NOW I NEED TO GET A NEW WALLET URGENTLY, ALL THANKS TO THIS BASTARD. I ASKED FOR A NEW WALLET FROM HIM BUT HE OFFERED ME TISSUE INSTEAD. WTF! BUT I STILL LOVE MY MY WALLET THOUGH ):

Woaaaaaaaah, that took a lot of energy!
Hahahahaha, I sound like a crybaby siaaaaaaa!
Wtf haha!

Thanks for th present Atiqaaaaaaaaah :DD

Ah, shit. I'm supposed to go do notes on inflation, racial harmony day. What else ah?
Oh, I need to sit in front of th mirror and practice reading and talking to myself!
I need to go search my cupboard for all my oral notes.
Ah, wtf! I'm so unprepared D:

it sounds exciting, but its not.

2008-07-07T13:47:00.011+08:00

EDITTED!

I didn't have any plans so I planned to take a walk outside.
But then, it was drizzling ):
Texted Crystal and she asked me out.
She offered to treat me Pizzahut @ Lot 1 but I hesitated at first.
But I still went since I was tooooooo bored.
(Told you my birthday so boring!)
Nad joined us too (:
We ordered so much but managed to finish everything though. Haha!
In total, spent $72.28! :S
I think I made Crystal broke! Hahahaha!

Nad, go run to th saloon and show them this picture now! :D

Done, Thanks for making my day! ^^

Reach home to find a Swensen's Ice Cream Cake on th table :D
A few minutes later, Sarpino's Pizza came too!
I was full already. So, I had a slice of cake, chicken wings and garlic bread only.
Somehow felt guilty for not eating much :/
I didn't ask anything from my parents as a birthday present.
How surprising!
I can't transfer th pictures here cause there's smt wrong with card reader for th Dslr ):

#

This is how my day started [:

Iman (Hazim too!) was the first. She rang me up at 12 on th dot :D

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Fadee insisted that she was th first cause she followed CNA timing. Hahaha!

I'm the birthday girl and yet, he was th excited one! Even texted me although he was online. Wth -.-

He was bored, I asked him to wait till 12am then he could go to sleep. & he really did. Haha!

This (sweet) bitch texted me although she was online too! Hehe

This one is unexpected. Haha, thnks anyway :D

I'll remember your promise!!! :p

Then early in th morning, it was Sofeana, Amirah, Fizah, Atiqah, Eddy.
Pure and Jackson sang me Birthday Song. Only that Jackson's one is th Insect Version (inside joke) Hehehe!
Next was Irwan, Maira, Liyana, Ruzanna, Nad, Mama, Ayah, Azmee, Oneay, Syahirah, Syamirah, Mubin.
Did i miss out anybody? Tell me (:

I had Hotcakes with Sausage for Breakfast. It was Grandma's treat ^^

(you'll see me like this only once in a lifetime. haha! in ugly pjs, but brush teeth alrdy okay!)

unity rhapsody!

2008-07-06T15:11:00.004+08:00

I didn't regret going to Unity Rhapsody :D
I'm terribly sorry to Fizah, Iman, Fadee, Farah and Pure for making them wait for 30 minutes.
I was super late cause I keep on changing my outfit.
My sister was irritated cause I'm too paranoid.
In th end, I didn't wear th vest cause I look like a waitress. Hahaha!

Thank you for being so patient, girls! ^^
When Ruz, Fizah and me arrived at Cck, they kept on staring at me!
Which made me really really really uncomfortable ):
I swear I couldn't stop complaining about myself.

Trained to Woodlands.
Went to th toilet and this 2 girls whom I know bitched about me right behind my back.
Like hello, I have ears!
It really made me feel even more paranoid sia!
Took th bus and we nearly fell down. Hahahah!

Reach Rp, we waited fr th door to open.
We got a good seat inside ^^
Th concert was rather short, to me.
Some brainless idiots don't have manners.
How would you feel if you're up there on th stage performing and people are laughing at you?
For goodness sake, use your brains!

Walked back to Cwp.
Had dinner at Banquet and went back home.
I walked home alone cause Fizah & Ruz was with their other half ):

CIKGU NORA KISSED ME! :DDDD
(I miss her alrdy!)

PICTURESSSSSSSS!
(please wait for it to upload.)

Ruz look like barbie doll! :D

THAT'S MY FAVOURITE TEACHER! :DDD

Fadee looks so pretty here! ^^

:p

I'm done! :D
Actually, there's more in Iman & Ruz's phone.
Hehehe!

2008-07-04T21:17:00.002+08:00

Its been a very tiring and stressful week.
Thank God its friday! :D
I'm really not in th right mood now.
I bumped into __ which made me really really happy!
I bumped into Zhong Yi too. But I can't be bothered to talk to him.
Guides meeting was disappointing.
Drill suck so much. I'm embarassed, really.
I'm not happy that I'll be taking th flag from Shiyun on Ndp.
I prefer to be in th contingent. I miss marching together you know ):
I hope I can persuade Ms Soh to replace me with someone else.
Unity Rhapsody tomorrow.
I'm lazy to go, I'll see my mood tomorrow.
I'll turn 15 in like, 3 days time.
I can't be bothered, really.

I miss Cikgu Nora.
Its so sweet that she's worried about us.
She made us cry cause she's leaving ):
Come back soon! :D

There'll be school only on Tuesday and Friday next week! ^^

Btw, Happy 15th Birthday Khadijah! :D

pretty please!

2008-07-03T20:41:00.009+08:00

I need to get something new for myself :D

This is how my monday started

2008-06-30T18:36:00.002+08:00

Breast-Puncher Girl rushed me in th morning.
Unfortunately, it didn't rain. So, we still had to do our Morning Exercise.
I forgot to print Farah's assignment. Really sorry! I totally forgot about it ):
I really paid attention during Maths Class :D
We spent our 2 free periods for Biology eating and storytelling.
I love to see Mdm Mok angry and irritated. Haha!
Cikgu Nor didn't come. So, we joined Cikgu Nora's class ^^
I miss her so much!
I told her "Cikgu jahat! You abandon us just like that!"
Then she smiled and told us to go back to Cikgu Nor's class.
But suddenly, th whole class saw Cikgu Nora.
All of us followed her down to 3E class :D
Let's abandon Cikgu Nor tomorrow! Hahahah!
Cikgu Nora still love us after all! ^^
We had Maths extra class after school.
In total, we had 6 periods of Maths today D:
All of us didn't focus. We ate, cheered, complain, disturb each other and laughed a lot!
Played th cup game, tuki-tuki game.
It made us laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaugh till our stomach hurts!
I think I spent so much money on junk food today ):
I don't like home food nowadays, bye!

2008-06-29T20:40:00.002+08:00

Weekend's gonna be over soon ):
It'll be a busy week ahead. More extra classes!
I hope it rains tomorrow morning.
So that we don't have to do our morning exercise duty ^^
I heard that Geo will be joining 3/6 according to Mai and Crystal.
Ahh, more competitions! D:
I'm excited to start my Maths tuition next week.
I can't wait to love Maths again :D

I'm busy playing games.

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2008-06-26T16:57:00.002+08:00

Its 5pm, I still haven't had anything in my stomach except for a glass of milk since recess. I've been losing my appetite and I tend to eat at th very last minute. I'm plain lazy to chew my food sometimes. There's a possibility that mum would sign me up for Mindchamps which cost $4k. Idk why th f she would waste her money like that! Whatever it is, I'm definitely not spending every Saturday attending Mindchamps from 10 to 5pm. I'm stuck with research for Guides project which needs to be handed in tmr. I didn't attend th course, therefore idk a thing about th assignment. What me pissed was that nobody bothered to reply my messages about this bloody assignment. I can't stop yawning in class. My eyes are half open now. I need to get proper sleep soon.

heart scan

2008-06-25T17:53:00.004+08:00

# I've realised some things. & I would like to apologise. I didn't think that people bother to read what's written in here. I know I've been in this crappybananashit mood lately. I have come to realise that maybe I'm taking things too seriously. I'm sorry if th things written here actually offended anybody. I'm not blaming anybody for th things that happened in my life. Cause I know the problem lies in me. Its me who decide how my life will be.

# Thank you to those who bothered to know what's happening in my life. Thanks for caring. Thank you Ruzanna for asking. Thank you Sofeana for calling up. Thank you Fadee for reminding me to chill. Its sincere, thanks a lot.

I now know that I have lovely people around me. I still love everybody (:

I'm taking down the tagboard soon

2008-06-24T17:58:00.004+08:00

I don't know how to put all these thoughts in words. I feel so damn guilty, worried, useless. Fuck, I don't know! I wish I could help my parents lighten their burden. Its like I'm asking for too much. But hell no! Its not that I want. What I ask for are my needs! Money has been a big issue in my life. Screw that!

School sucks so much. I don't care if I'm repeating that so many times. If you're irritated, then fuck off. But thank God Tuesdays are the best out of the whole week. "You should have at least tried this question since you're a Pure Chemistry student" Damn it, I feel like a BIG BIG BIG loser. For now, Malay lessons are okay with Mdm Nor around. She notice little things and I hate that. We can't even put our hands below the table. Bloody fuck. I'm more stress with the coming O level Malay oral. I just suck at bahasa baku la! Friends have been telling me that I'm different. Most probably, they conclude that through th way I blog. Don't worry, its temporary. I'll search for myself and be happy again. But damn it, every little things can make my eyes teary. Ah, I don't understand myself. I don't even know why th hell I'm typing all this for.

I'm taking down th tagboard soon. There's no difference whether its there or not.

too many things on your mind might just cause you to cry out loud

2008-06-23T18:44:00.002+08:00

First Day of School suck, as expected.
Perhaps, its because I went to school thinking that 'Today's gonna suck so much!'
I rushed my ass off to meet Fadee, who still had the cheek to rush me like mad woman when she alrdy knew I'm super kanchiong!
Today is a bad hair day, I hate my hair.
I didn't focus in class cause I was damn sleepy.
I suddenly had this bad headache again, which made me lose my mood.
I didn't eat during maths lesson for th first time ever.
O Level Malay Oral is starting on 26th June!
I was damn shocked when Mdm Nor said that. I suck at Perbualan!
I have debts to clear. I owe sister ):
I miss reading books but I can't borrow book. I have fines to clear -.-

I have so much things to do!
Study for Social Studies Pop Quiz!
E-Maths Homework (which I barely know how to do)!
Redo English Reflections in Letter Format!
Guides damn project!
Revise back Maths (cause I can't remember any formula at all!)!
Oh, I also need to sort out my mind.

I'll go to school tomorrow with this mindset, 'Let's enjoy studying! School is gooooood!'
Hahaha, ya right!

100 questions to occupy your time.

2008-06-23T15:15:00.004+08:00

(editted) :D

01. What have you been doing recently?
Eat, Sleep, Shit. & now, SCHOOL!

02. Do you ever turn your cellphone off?
Yes, when I'm really down.

03. What happened at 10 am today?
Watching some video during Humanities.

04. When did you last cry?
A moment ago.

05. What is your favourite things to eat with peanut butter?
I don't even eat peanut butter!

06. What do you want in your life right now?
What else if not MONEY?!

07. Do you carry an umbrella when it rains or just put up your hood?
I don't carry umbrella.

08. What's your favourite thing to have on your bed?
Pretty bedsheets and my pillows

09. What bottom are you wearing now?
Shorts.

10. What's the nicest text in your inbox say?
I don't keep many messages in my inbox, even th nicest text.

11. Do you tend to make relationship complicated?
I'm very complicated, so what do you think?

12. Are you wearing anything you borrowed from someone?
No!

13. What was th last movie you caught?
I can't remember. Its either Congkak or Narnia.

14. What are you proud of?
I'm not proud of myself or anything.

15. What does the oldest text message in your inbox say?
A friend, complaining about some stuff.

16. What was the last song you sang out loud?
I can't remember

17. Do you have any nicknames?
zooooooooooooran -.-

18. What does your last received text message say? Who was it from?
Its from Pure. You don't have to know.

19. What time did you go to bed last night?
Nearly 12am.

20. Are you currently happy?
Do you feel happy after crying out loud?

21. Who gives you best advice?
No particular person

22. Do you eat whipped cream straight from the can?
Well, I can ^^

23. Who did you talk on phone last night?
I don't talk on th phone, I text.

24. Is anything bugging you right now?
HELL YEAH! THERE'S TOO MUCH ON MY MIND!

25. What/Who was the last thing/person to make you laugh?
Its been a long time since I really laugh my ass off. No kidding

26. Do you wear toe socks?
Uhh? 0.0

27. Who was th last person you missed a call from?
I don't have a caller id on my hp -.- (go ahead and laugh)

28. Have you ever had your heart broken?
Yeah.

29. What annoys you most in a person?
My brothers! >:(

30. Do you have a crush on anyone?
Currently, no.

31. Have you ever done cocaine?
Uhh?

32. What is the colour of your room?
Blue

33. Would you kill someone you hate for a billion dollar?
Perhaps, yes.

34. Do you believe in the saying 'talk is cheap'?
Yes!

35. Who was the last person to lie on your bed?
Myself

36. Who was the last person to hug you?
I DON'T KNOW

37. Did anyone see the last person you kissed?
Kissed on th cheek counted?

38. Do you have a life?
No, I feel so dead.

39. Have you ever think someone died, when they really didn't?
I ONCE DREAMT ABOUT FADEE DEAD!

40. What is the reason behind your profile song?
I don't even have a song put up.

41. Who was the last person you saw in your dream?
Nisa from Hkss. I miss her so much, I guess.

42. Last time you smiled?
I can't remember the last time I really smiled sincerely.

43. Have you changed this year?
I guess so.

44. What are you listening right now on which ear?
One Step at a Time, on th speaker.

45. Are you talking to someone when you're doing this?
I'm telling myself to stop lying to myself.

46. Do you walk with your eyes open or closed?
THIS IS THE STUPIDEST QUESTION EVER.

47. Is there a quote you live by?
Everybody have their own strengths and weaknesses. Accept them for who they are.

48. Do you want someone you can't have?
Hehe, yeah.

49. Have you ever played an instrument?
Oh yes! Guitar lesson in Sec 2 (:

50. What was the worst idea you've had in the week?
I want to hide myself from everyone and don't go to school!

51. What were you doing last night at 11pm?
Packing my school bag.

52. Are you happy with your love life right now?
Which one are you talking about?

53. What song best describe your love life?
I can't be bothered, really.

54. Does the person know you like him/her?
No, I don't think so ):

55. Who always make you laugh?
People around me.

56. Do you speak other language other than English?
Yes, duh!

57. Favourite website?
Online shops :D

58. What's your middle name?
I have a middle name?

59. What are you doing tomorrow?
Drag myself to school.

60. What do you think you are like?
I don't even understand myself, sometimes.

61. Who will you choose to die with?
I want to die alone.

62. Where have you been today?
Bloody School!

63. What game do you play often?
Fighting using words with my brother counted?

64. Who are you missing right now?
I miss my happy life D:

65. If you have to choose between friends and love, who will you choose?
I never thought of that.

66. What are you doing right now?
Isn't it obvious? I'm doing this quiz -.-

67. Which primary school are you from?
Kranji Primary School [;

68. Name 3 colours that you like.
GREEN! violet, sky blue, white. Anything laaaaa!

69. What emotion you like to show?
Do you have a choice? When you're happy, grin laa! When you're sad, just shut up.

70. What is you life to you?
Sadly, my life is useless.

71. If you have something troubling you, what will you do?
I'll just shut up and try to find some peace.

72. Who did you last chat in Msn today?
I'm appearing offline -.-

73. Who do you admire most?
People who have courage to express their feelings.

74. Which month are you born in?
July {:

75. How are you feeling right now?
I feel really really awful. I just want to cuddle up in my bed.

76. What is the time now?
Why do you bother?

77. What kind of person do you think the one who tagged you is?
She is very very kind, cause she lend me so much money ^^ SHE IS FIERCEEEEEE! Hahaha

78. What colour did you use to dye your hair?
I want broze please (:

79. Why are you doing this test?
To keep myself from thinking about unnecessary stuff.

80. What do you do when you're moody?
Turn on emo songs and scribble everywhere and just shut up!

81. At which age you wish to get married?
After I enjoy my life.

82. Who is more important to you? Girlfriend or friends?
Both :D

83. If today is the last day of your life, what will you do?
I'll leave a note for each and everyone that entered my life.

84. Who is the person you trust the most?
I don't trust anybody for now ):

85. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after a rain?
I'll go, "wow! i wish i could go and find some treasure at th end of th rainbow!" -.-

86. If you have a dream come true, what would it be?
money, family, friends, career, love, money, money.

87. What is your goal for this year?
At least pass A-Maths and do well for EOY.

88. Do you believe in eternity love.
Used to. But now, prove it to me!

89. What feeling do you love most?
To be loved and cared.

90. Do you really think its Global Warming now?
I just did about that in my English Essay!

91. What feeling you hate most?
When you're neglected and disliked.

92. Do you cherish every single friendship of yours?
Some things made me think twice.

93. Do you believe in god?
Yes, definitely.

94. Who cares for you most?
I don't know -.-

95. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
How to keep myself happy.

96. What will you bring when you fight?
I don't know!

97. What have you done regretted doing in your whole life?
A lot! No kidding!

98. What would you feel when someone no longer cares for you?
sad ):

99. What if your stead two-timed you?
Revenge!

100. What do you want now?
A listening ear and a shoulder to cry on.

so this is th end

2008-06-22T21:35:00.002+08:00

I'm still moaning over school eventhough I know its impossible to stop th time!
Instead of complaining, I'll find reasons why I should be happy about school.
#1 I'll get pocket money! I won't be broke ever again!
#2 I'll be more prepared for Malay O Level with Cikgu Nor around. (RIGHHHHT!)
#3 I kinda miss 3/6 although I always complain about some people.
#4I'll be too occupied with school to think about some stuffs.
#5 I'll see my lovely friends everyday.

But heck,
I'll miss Mdm Nora ):

I skipped Guides on Saturday.
I had this terrible headache th previous night.
_ was kind of mad, I think.
She even called up mum right after receiving my msg -.-
Pfft, like I care.

Basically, I spent my weekends at home.
I have this frequent headache that is really bugging me!

After 1 month of not attending madrasah (including 2 wks of holiday),
I kind of miss it.
I got my results back. I can't be bothered.

I have so many things to copy tomorrow morning!
:/
I hope I won't be late!

Anyway, I'm still not looking forward to go to school.

i'll be hardworking next semester!

2008-06-20T16:33:00.004+08:00

(editted)

Maybe I should accept th fact that you won't be here for long.
I know that you'll be gone someday. I just know.
You might just forget me th next moment.
Cause people walks in and out of your life just like that.
For th time being, I'll try my best to put on a happy face.
But inside, I know I don't belong here.
"Its amazing how you can keep so much bottled up inside you & walk around & no one has any idea" -Nysa

(an emo bug just hit me)

Coooooooool, my aunt just gave birth to a boy :D
Anyway, how is it like to give birth?
Hahahaha!

Ruzanna came over to my house yesterday.
We did just a little bit of Chemistry and Biology.
There was more of slack + munching on junk foods.
We kept on fantasizing while watching Celebrity Journeys on Travel & Living.
I wish I have Fairly Odd Parents!
Then I could wish for everything! How awesomeeeee! ^^
I'm finally done with all the English Essays (:

I woke up rather early today, thanks to Fadee's msg.
So, met her under Ruz's blk and head to Whizland.
Then, we found out that it was still closed. Pffffft!
Fadee called th centre but she didn't want to talk -.-
We were bored, so we went to Just Education and it was closed too.
Texted Nad to join us since we were near her house.
But she didn't reply.
Went to Professional for Fadee's haircut.
I feel like having a cut, wash & blow too.
But I decided to wait till my hair is longer.
Walked around Lot 1 then back to Whizland.
We finally registered for tuition. Hahaha!

I'm going to copy Chemistry hmwk on Monday.
I'll just do a lil bit of Biology.
I'm going to see th Answer sheet for Malay Practice Paper.
As simple as that. Hah!

I'm having headaches every day.
Argh!

Heck, leave me alone

2008-06-19T13:04:00.004+08:00

I'm seriously irritated. I wish I'm still on holiday.
Singapore's life is so stressful.
I won't be posting pictures so soon.
Highlights of th holiday:
1) FOOOOOOOOOD!
2) Arcade Games!
3) Bowling!
4) Karaoke!
5) Hotel!
I'm really really really lazy to post about it.
TIME TO HIT THE BOOKS!
I have piles of assignments to be done before Monday.
I can't believe school is on Monday ):
I've not yet revised any single subject.
I can't remember any maths formulas.
I'm clueless on how to do my Chemistry homework.
Damn, school sucks so much!

ain't gonna cry

2008-06-13T01:49:00.004+08:00

My desk is so full of used tissues. One of my nose is blocked and I can't breathe properly. My throat is so itchy cause there's a lot of phlegm in it. I swear this totally sucks. I'm going on a holiday from tomorrow till Tuesday/Wednesday. I can finally scream 'Hooray!' Wait, I forgot to mention about my day with the girls.

As usual, I was late to meet th girls. Only 6 turned up though ): We trained to Orchard. Funny and weird things happened otw there. Then, we took a bus to go Ecp. As expected, we got lost. I wanted to take th cab badly but th rest were not willing to burn their money just like that. We finally made our way to th beach. Imagine this! We had to walk from th cable ski place all th way to MacDonald! Th weather was damn hot. All of us gave up and nearly asked for a hitch. Hahaha!

To make it short, we arrived at our desired destination only around 3pm. Since we were too exhausted plus hungry, we ate th food that we brought. Oh, we GOSSSSSSSSSIP too. Played uno and rent a double seater bike with Fizah. I enjoyed this part a lot! :D Too many hilarious moments to type out. Skip Skip. We made our way to Plaza Singapura for our dinner. Dine in at PizzaHut then we rushed to eat since it was late alrdy. Th funny thing was that everybody was so scared of vibrating phones! Hahahaha! I reach home at 9.45pm and my mum didn't nag at all! ^^ I feel like a pig cause I ate again when I reach home.

Actually, I have more to write. But I guess this is th longest post ever!
So wordy!

Its 2.45am :/

Pssssssst, Crystal and me have so many similar characteristics.
How interesting!

follow me on twitter (:

2008-06-11T15:17:00.004+08:00

I can bandage people's head very well! Anyone? (:

I feel so shitty this moment.
I neeeeeeeeed to go out and get something to make me happy again.
But, everybody is so busy/lazy to entertain me.

Cough, flu, sore throat, headache. What else?!
I hope I'll get better by tomorrow.
I don't want to ditch th girls.
Anw, I need to get out and clear my head.
:D

Sometimes, I feel that I don't understand myself.
Sometimes, I feel that its because of other people's fault that I feel this way.
Sometimes, I feel that people around me are heartless and selfish.
Sometimes, I feel so lonely.
Or maybe, its just me.

I need a haircut

2008-06-10T16:31:00.004+08:00

On last Sunday (8th June) morning, I woke up reading this on my phone.

"Eh, yesterday your birthday right? If correct. Haha! Happy Belated Birthday.. Pass you present when sch reopen."
Hahahahaha! I laughed when I read it.
Honestly, he was th one who reminded me about my coming birthday.
No kidding!

I told you I look chubby alrdy! ):

So anyway, we had Civil Defence Course on Monday.
I was kind of irritated when __ wasn't on time and didn't bother to msg or something.
It wasn't that boring after all.
We learnt about First Aid and others. I can't remember.
We had practical for CPR and using of Fire Extinguisher :D
Very coooooooooool! ^^
Th course was from 9 to 5pm.
But th test that would determine whether we will get our badge or not was only 15 mins.
& Its MCQ and there's only 15 questions.
Damn easy laaaaaaaaa, waste my time -.-

After that, Pure and me went to Sinaran to have our meal.
Then, went to Teck Whye for my bubble tea.
We had so much to talk about otw home. (;

This morning, I woke up with a slight headache and sore throat.
I think its th weather ):
Its like, there's something stuck in my throat.
Or more like something growing inside?
Okay no. I think its just th weather.

Aaah, I'm done here ^^

so insecure

2008-06-08T18:54:00.003+08:00

I finally bothered to update my friendster with new photos and new background.
I don't want to attend Civil Defence Course tomorrow.
But I can't wait to meet Pure :D
Its going to be th 3rd week of holiday.
I want to start doing my homework badly.
But I always ended up watching some drama online or lying on th sofa, watching MTV or reading storybooks or munching on food.
English, Chemistry, Biology, Malay, Social Studies.
Aaaaaaaaaah, so many! D:
Outing with th girls this Thursday.
Somehow, I'm not excited for it. Eventhough I planned it -.-
I can't wait to get out of Singapore.
We're not going Pangkoh, but we're going somewhere else (which idk where).
I wish I'm at Australia. Urgh!
Its so noisy downstairs. Somebody died.
I don't know what else to blog.

just realise

2008-06-07T23:28:00.000+08:00

Its so tiring to hold back your tears.

You're heartless!

2008-06-05T17:18:00.002+08:00

I spent my Wednesday with my cousin to Acer Service Center where I met Amirah Imelda :D
Then, we had Delifrance for late lunch.
But I only had Hot Chocolate.
(I feel like having Hot Vanilla now.)
Oh, I had Double Chocolate Chip Brownies too.
We went to Lot 1 and had dinner at Food Culture.
But I lost my appetite.
I watched Absolute Boyfriend till 1 in th morning.

I stayed at home today with th intention to do my homework.
I didn't do a single one obviously!
MTV is my currently my best friend.
I'm heading to th Airport soon.

Holiday to Pangkoh is cancelled.
Bloody hell!
Singapore is so boring!

I'm still smelly

2008-06-03T11:04:00.002+08:00

I really don't know where to start.
On Saturday, I watched The Chronicles Of Narnia: Prince Caspian.
It was my Uncle's treat (;
On Sunday, I sleep, read and eat all day long.
On Monday, I watched Congkak. Like finally.
This time round, It was my Aunt's treat (;

My 5 year old cousin followed to watch th horror movie too.
While waiting for th movie to start, there was an advertisement on Tiger Beer.
Then, he said this.
"Kalau Danish dah besar, boleh minum air mabok?"
Since his voice was loud, almost everyone heard that.
Even strangers in the front row laughed at him.

I MISS YOU GIRLS! :D
Its been so long since ALL OF US really sit down and catch up on each other's life.
Lets go out this holiday.
I'll try to plan ^^

I need to start doing my holiday assignments.
I need to stop watching too much dramas.
Btw, First Kiss is awesommmmmmeeeee! :D
Go watch it!

sakit hati tau

2008-05-30T15:59:00.003+08:00

Heart pain, Heart pain ):
You want to know why?
Cause I'm so damn broke. I'm left with $4 for this whole entire holidays D:
I shouldn't! I shouldn't! I shouldn't!
I shouldn't have spent my pocket money on food ):
Like how I spent my money on Nasi Lemak, Hot Fudge Sundae and Taquitos just now.
And this whole thing about online shopping is not making me feel any better.
It sucks being broke.

I watched Sky of Love! (thank you fadilah!)
Its such a sweet but very sad story.
:D

Believe it or not,
Its been a long time since I camwhored.

takoyaki, tao kae noi, brownies, cupcakes, ban mian, waffle ice cream.

2008-05-28T16:47:00.003+08:00

During Maths Class, I listed down all the food/things that I'm craving for.
And Fadee just had to tempt me to try Famous Amos Brownies.
I'm definitely going to be fat soon.

I can't stop browsing online shops.
Sometimes, th tops that I bought just had to rot in my closet before I wear it.
I don't know.
You'll feel satisfied when you buy this amazingly beautiful top.
But in th end, you never wear it.
-.-
Okay, thats me.

I miss playing Audition ):
We played DJ Max (is it?) in th lib just now. I think its addictive.
I should start reading th books that I borrowed.

Goodbye.

2008-05-27T13:24:00.002+08:00

My weekends were awesome.
There are tons of pictures in th camera but I'm too lazy to upload it here.
I didn't attend madrasah and guess what?
Ustazah threatened th absentees that marks will be deducted fr not cmg.
What crap?!
I must have gained at least 3kg. Just look at my cheeks.
Now, I feel like eating Takoyaki. I can't find Pasar malam nearby.
Menstrual Panadol does not work. Now, tell me what to do to reduce th pain!
I have to starve this week. Cause I need to save ):
Maths lesson just now wasn't helpful.
I forgot all th formulas already.
Damn it, this reminds me of my maths homework.
Played games with Ruban, Wei Jie, Shichuan, Sof and Fadee at th canteen just now.
Super funny but its so tiring to laugh and concentrate at th same time.

Okay bye, I need some rest.

You're labelled as 'The Biggest Loser'

2008-05-23T22:54:00.003+08:00

Its amazing to see how heartless and brainless humans can get.
Why don't people think before saying something?
Its even more frustrating to know that people love to see others hurt.
How would you feel if someone purposely humiliate you in front of everyone?
Come on, use your brains.

You know how hilarious it is to see you, making a fool of yourself?
Don't act like you're th cool one here.
Cause you know what? You're th biggest loser ever.

If you think its you that I'm talking about, then its you.
As simple as that.

i went for suntan at kota tinggi and turned black.

2008-05-23T13:03:00.002+08:00

I skipped school today cause I was too tired.
Anyway, I'm absolutely sure that many skipped class too.
So, I was right. Fadee, Sofeana, Ruzanna, Crystal, Maira also skipped school.
Hahaha! If I'm not wrong, 15 ppl didn't attend school in 3/6.

So yeah, I'm back from Kota Tinggi Camp.
I can't deny that I did enjoy th camp after all.
Eventhough there were so many things I hate about th camp, its still quite fun.
I'm just gonna summarise about it.

I regret not bringing sweets/lollipops/crackers/bread to th camp.
Cause th food really sucks. I couldn't stop complaining about my hunger.
I didn't get t try flying fox ):
Abseilling/repelling was scary! I had a hard time going down.
But when I got down, I felt a sense of achievement! :D
Group 7 and 8 combined. We played ice breaker games which actually bonded us.
There were 5 people sleeping in my tent. I was glad that it wasn't 6/7 ppl.
When I woke up, I kept on scratching myself!

Morning PT didn't manage t wake people up.
Breakfast rocks and its th only meal I enjoyed.
Trekking was such a chore! I hate it like seriously!
We reached Checkpoint 3 then we went down again.
Lunch wasn't appetizing at all.
Played Indiana Jones, Kayaking, Jetty Jump.
Super funnn! ^^
I didn't do Jetty Jump though.
But we got to swim in th lake :D
My team got washed in th lake and th threw me so far in th lake laaa!
Bt still, fun! :D
Campfire was th best thing ever!
Its so hilarious to see people perform.

Had area cleaning th next day.
Oh, my group/Group 7 got th Best Team Award.
I thought it was a joke! I expected one of th Bravo team to win.
It was luck la, that's why we won.
After so long, we finally boarded th bus :D

Okay I'm done.

2008-05-19T19:18:00.002+08:00

I've been spending too much money on going to th movies.
I owe my sister $12 ):
But I feel like watching Congkak too.

Thankfully, my flu got better.
Off to Kota Tinggi tomorrow morning.
I want to have fun no matter how th grouping will be like :D

I feel like having something cold.
Mango/Green Apple Ice Blended, Mc Flurry, Hot Fudge, Double Chocolate.
I feel like eating Takoyaki too.
Hahahahaha!

Before I list down all my cravings, I should go.
Goodbye.

i just want to curl up in th bed

2008-05-18T16:57:00.005+08:00

I didn't update for, 2 days? Yeah, I can't be bothered. Tell me what do you do when you're sick? So, all i did was to eat medicine, sleep, tv and blow your nose. It sucks to have to blow your nose every single minute cause if you don't, your mucus will drip down to your mouth. Hahaha!

Friday
Went to school as usual. But I wasn't in th mood for jokes. I was glad that lunch at Pizzahut will be postponed cause I was broke. After Hml class, went to Woodlands with Ruz and Sof. Searched for my trackpants and Sof's skirt. Then went to Kranji for Ruz's bermudas. Had our dinner at LJS. Ruz had to go home, so me and Sof head to Bangkit to collect some stuff. Reached home at 8.30pm and everybody left for ngaji alrdy. I was forced to go ngaji on my own. Cb, I was totally mad for some reasons.

Saturday
After having my brunch, took a nap. Then off to Amk Hub with cousin. Watch Made By Honour. Super funnnnny but sweeeet! :D Then, walked around. Bought a top for 20 bucks but cousin paid for it! :D Trained to JE and took a bus to Chevron for birthday party. Then, finally arrive home at 12am.

Sunday
Woke up late cause I only slept at 2am th day before. I was in the lazy-mood-to-go-anywhere. But I still had to attend madrasah. Exam was -.- I couldn't be bothered to think, so I left quite a few questions blank since I didn't study fr th paper at all. I still haven't pack my bag for camp. Bleaaaah, maybe I'll do that tomorrow night. So, you can conclude that I'm not excited fr camp.
Firstly, I'm sick and I don't like to blow my nose in front of people. Secondly, th weather is bloody hot nowadays. Thirdly, I'm very sure that I'll get my P nxt wk. (But i don't want!) And lastly, I'm scared of th grouping. I can't imagine how I'll survive with strangers.

Oh yes, I know this post is so wordy and lengthy. I'm very very malas to go upload th pictures that I took yesterday.

i thought i was right

2008-05-15T14:57:00.003+08:00

I'm suffering from muscle cramp and sore throat.
It doesn't help to listen to emo songs in every blog that I came across.
I don't feel like coming to school tmr but there's Malay Test.
Yes, even after th exams are over -.-

The weather was so hot just now so I went home aft buying some stuff at Lot 1.
Th service at Sweetie/Sweet Talk at CCK interchange was damn slow.
Raaaaaaaah!

Leadership Workshop wasn't too bad.
Th coach reminds me of Yelicia ^^
Th games were awesoooomeee! :D
But whenever th coach start blabbering about th powerpoint slide, I would start to feel sleepy again.
Th screaming during th games made my throat worse.
Kevin purposely stepped and dirtied my notes.
Urgh!

I have th urge to run to th salon and get my hair cut right now.
And please, I don't want to get sick at this moment.

no title for today

2008-05-14T18:32:00.002+08:00

I regret re-taking my standing broad jump to get a silver! D:
Cause I still end up with a bronze.
& I have to suffer with muscle cramp on both thighs.

A B4 for English. I'm satisfied already.
I kept on munching during lessons cause its th only way to keep me awake.
I'm so sick of school.
At least its a workshop tmr and not lessons.

Kota Tinggi Camp next week.
Honestly, not looking forward.
Especially the grouping part.
But th activities sound interesting :D

Ah, I'm starving.

i wish i could read people's mind

2008-05-13T19:08:00.002+08:00

I'm so smelly and feeling so lethargic. I'm so lazy to drag my ass to the toilet.

I've been lazy to post. I've got so much to say, really!

I received all my results except for English.

I'll wait till I receive all th results then I'll tell my parents.

You want to know how I did for MYE?

Terrible. I'm not lying.

I failed 3 subjects. Both A&E Maths and also Pure Chem.

Heck, I didn't expect to fail so badly for Chem.

A B3 for Hml. I need one bloody mark for A2.

Nvm. I'm happy that I got at least a B3 for it [:

A C5 for Pure Bio. Geees, I'm glad that I passed.

An A2 for Combined Humanities.

I think its luck that i got an A2 -.-

Okay done. Don't ask about results, please.

I watched Ayat-Ayat Cinta with Fadee and Farah.

:D very nice!

I didn't care if I had enough money fr th rest of th week.

Cause I just had to watch it to make me happy again ^^

Damn, probably gg Pizzahut on Friday.

I guess I'll have to starve for 2 days.

I wish I could read people's mind.

I want to know what people think about me.

Seriously. I don't care even if its bad things.

Wouldn't it be great?

unexpected

2008-05-12T16:59:00.002+08:00

My weekends suck so much. So, don't bother asking about Mother's Day celebration. I was stuck at home on Saturday. Mum, Dad and even Grandma was nagging that it pisses me off. In th end, I spent th day watching Gossip Girl and clean up my desk.

Sunday was Mother's Day. Pfft! We only got mum a card. I didn't have th mood to go out or anything. But mum treated us to watch Iron Man. Go and watch it! I love th effects! :D Oh, Jackson was in th same theater as me too! Sister got her pay, so she treated us to Swensens ^^

Don't ask about results. I felt so useless and stupid when i received my papers. Gosh, I don't know how to face my parents.

I need to splurge to make me happy. I want to watch Ayat-ayat Cinta. Anyone? :D

2008-05-09T12:52:00.002+08:00

Th responds for th Class CIP cum Class Outingwas quite good :D
Only about 5 didn't come?
We had to wait for such a long time before we could finally start our journey to ECP.

Then, we finally arrive at ECP.

See how happy Crystal was!

Then, we start cleaning up th alrdy-quite-clean beach.

This girl just had to pose for a picture.

Thats DEAD FISH! Very disgusting!

Idk whats that but it was still alive!

How unglam can this be? Going to th beach with big black plastic bags.

After almost 2 hours, everybody started to slack.

Fadee nearly fell into th water :p

Mr Tan finally gave instructions for us to have lunch.
But it wasn't even 11.
So, we had to wait.

When it was finally 11, we rushed to queue up.
Iman and I had a hard time deciding on what to buy.
So, Fadee, Iman and I got our Mc Spicy. Like finally :D
I was enjoying my Mc Spicy that I don't bother to snap pictures.
Since it was raining heavily, class outing was cancelled.
We changed our shirts and went to town ^^

Guess who's that girl with th 'scarf'!

Now you see these 2 mad girls.

They were so scared that th wind would blow th umbrella -.-

This is where we got freaked out by this insane man.

On th bus, we saw this girl with so much hair clips on her head!

GO COUNT!

Reached Wisma and head to th toilet.
Tell me what do girls do when they saw big big mirrors in toilet?

This is whr we saw a women holding a $1000 note in her hand.
Imagine how frustrating it was?!!
I wish I could go grab it and run away!

So, walked around, window-shop.
Its so frustrating to see so much things that you want but you don't have th money!
Grrrrrrrrr!
Went to Far East after that.
Iman and Fadee had to go back home.
But Ruz, Sof and I went to Bugis since it was still very early.

Head back to Lot 1 to go eat at Food Culture then homeee [;

It feels so good to sleep for 18 hours :D

lethargic

2008-05-08T20:41:00.002+08:00

Really, I'm extremely exhausted.
I'm still uploading and resizing th 50 plus pictures.
So, look out for tomorrow's update [;

Go And Kiss The Examinations Goodbye

2008-05-07T13:31:00.003+08:00

{editted @ 5.40pm}

SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY!
I know you guys don't know why I'm saying this.
Well, you don't have to know.
Tsk, I shouldn't be feeling this way.
I know its wrong. I know! I know!
But, I just feel so ......
Arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! Cb!
I can't bring myself to say th truth :'(
This whole feeling have been burning in me for like months?!
I just can't can't can't say th truth!
Cause I know, you won't ever understand.
I tried to forget everything. I tried okay!
But it keeps coming back! I can't help it.
Okay, I shd shut up and stop these tears from rolling down.

No, I ain't feeling good eventhough MYE's over.
But of course, I'm glad MYE's over.
Th sight th of books and notes are enough to make me puke.
So much for staying up to study Chemistry and A maths.
Cause I have this feeling that I'm going to fail both papers.
Tsk, whatever.

I'm so sick of th situation at home, really.
Everybody's nagging like they have nothing better to do.
Grandma, Mum, Dad. Who else?!
I think my brothers are sick in th brain.
They've been arguing like forever.

The littlest thing that you do or say can annoy me.
Yes, If you don't know, I notice every little thing.

I feel like going shopping.
If only I have th cash ):
Mother's Day coming, but I still have no idea what to do.
Plus, I'm broke broke broke!

Class CIP cum Class Outing tmr at ECP.
I don't feel like waking up at 7 in th morning.
I hope my mood will be good enough to enjoy tomorrow.

Meeting Pure later.
Its been so long since we catch up on each other's life.
But now, I need a nap.

I need some motivation please.

2008-05-05T16:23:00.002+08:00

I'll Tell You Why I'm Unhappy:

1. I still have 2 more papers to go. But my brother is done with his papers alrdy eventhough we started first.
2. I'm certain that my results will be disappointing.
3. I didn't know what to write for my History Essay Question -.-
4. My 7 mark answer was much longer than my 12 mark answer.
5. I'm sitting for Chemistry Paper tmr.
6. I'm not willing to sit on th chair for 2 hours and 15 mins cause I think I'll spend most of th time staring at th paper.
7. I simply can't understand many chemistry topics. Gosh, chemistry suck.
8. I got caught up with th whole situation that I think everything irritates me.
9. I'm very very sleepy but I need to study!
10. There's ngaji tonight which means that I don't have time to study later.

And I'll Tell You Why I'm Happy:

1. I ate Hotcakes just now. I can never get sick of eating it.
2. I gave my Happy Meal toy to Liyana's brother.
3. I'm eating Betty Crockers Brownies.
4. I ate Crunch Chocolate just now.
5. Thank God I'm left with only 4 chapters for Chem.
6. I'm too excited for th end of MYE.
7. I can't wait to dine in at Pizza Hut with th babes to celebrate th end of MYE.
8. Th holidays are coming!!!!
9. I saw hgakojgoa at school :D
10. PURE MADE MY DAY! <3

Okay thats it. Did you realise that th things that make me happy are mainly food? Hahaha!

I can never be satisfied with anything.

2008-05-04T18:04:00.002+08:00

A few days back,
Dad was talking to brother while i was watching th tv.
Dad: I know you want to be a Dj. I can see that.
Bro: *I can't rmbr what he said*
Dad: But I still don't know what your sister wants to be. *looks at me*
Me: *grins* Actually, I also don't know what I want to be.

It hit me hard, seriously.
Cause, i just realised that if you don't have any aims/dreams, you won't get anywhere.
I mean, even if you work hard, where are you heading to?
Nevermind if you don't get it.

Madrasah exam was -.-"
I was lucky to get a seat next to my friend.
"Orang you meniru itulah orang yang paling bodoh." -Ustazah
In my heart,
"Yes, yes. I'm th stupidest person. -.-"
Nevermind if you still don't get it.

I feel like eating Hotcakes now. But its 6pm. Where to get hotcakes sia? -.-"

(Mc Spicy, Please!)

2008-05-03T19:28:00.003+08:00

I didn't know reading about someone's life would be so interesting. Believe it or not, i spent like 3 hours on this laptop just to read about her life. Gees, i want to have that kind of life too! I can't wait to grow up. I want to have a fabulous life. I want to live in th terrace house and have a stable job with big salary. Then, i could spend all th money on everything that i want! :D

I'm having History Paper on Monday and Arab Paper tomorrow. I still haven't covered th topic on League of Nation. I'm forever failing Arab so I don't give a shit about it. I'll start thinking about Chemistry and A Maths paper when I feel like it.

I feel like having Mc Spicy right now. Actually, I've been craving for it since like last last last week? Then i forgot all about it. And suddenly remembered about it ytd when chatting and Ziq tried to make me jealous but he didn't managed to do so. But right now, my brother is eating it right in front of me! I can't be bothered to ask for a bite cause he's eating like there's no tomorrow.

I really really can't wait for Wednesday! I won't have to sit on th chair for like 2 hours plus, cracking my brain to answer all those bloody questions on numerous amount of papers after that. Okay, I think I'm off to bury my head in those darn books and notes. Eh wait, I might just end up sleeping on my desk cause I've been yawning from just now.

Eh, how to study if my left eye hurts? Soap went in my eyes while i was bathing -.-

I'm calling your name, can you hear me?

2008-05-02T21:49:00.002+08:00

I'll Tell You Why I Can't Study :

1. My mind is telling me to relax and chill.
2. My knee hurts. So, its uncomfortable for me to sit down and study.
3. I feel like auditioning eventhough I've deleted it.
4. My left eye suddenly hurts.
5. I've torn so many foolscaps cause my handwriting isn't nice.
6. My ~~table~~ room is in a total mess. I can't concentrate.
7. No Muttons to Midnight today.
8. I only managed to do notes for 2 chapters (out of 10) of Chemistry. I get distracted easily.
9. My throat is so thirsty but there's no Coke in th fridge.
10. My vision in my left eye is blur.
11. I can't stop th temptation to use this computer.
12. I want to read a storybook.
13. I'm too excited for MYE to end.

Need me to list down more?

I didn't know someone is in th same boat as me.
But I envy her cause she's brave enough to pen down all her thoughts.

clueless

2008-05-02T15:39:00.002+08:00

I don't feel like studying or mugging at all.
There's still th weekends right? Haha!
Thank God Maths Paper 2 was easier than Paper 1.
Just a pass is enough to make me happy ^_^

Oh, I finally had my Cheesy Turkey Bacon Pizza :D
Okay, I don't know what to blog about.
Bye {:

There's too much to say

2008-04-30T20:17:00.005+08:00

I don't know why I'm here.
I'm supposed to be getting ready to go for religious class.
Goodbye.
(I'll edit this post when i get back home)

{editted at 9.32pm}

I've got so much to say but i really don't know where to start.
Okay, exam period suck so much.
Except for th fact tht thrs no lesson.
I can't wait for it to be over :D

I've got so much to complain about my papers.
But I can't possibly blame others right?
I'll just hope for th best {:

I only slept, eat, watch tv and play th computer eversince i got home just now.
But I'll study tmr [:

I think my mind isn't straight nowadays.
I've so much of negative thoughts and I think I'm insane. Haha!

Okay, i'm done here.

(I've got other personal things to write about but i kept on pressing th spacebar. I don't know why but I'm acting so weird nowadays. I guess its not meant for everyone to know. I'll just keep everything to myself till I can find someone whose willing to listen.)

you don't have to read this.

2008-04-26T19:15:00.004+08:00

I still haven't squeeze all 90 peribahasa inside my head.
I don't even know if i could do that before my Hml paper ):
I couldn't study anything today. I don't know why.
I feel like having Pizza and Lagsane (is that how you spell it?) for dinner.
I can't wait to watch APM tonight. I don't know why.
I don't feel like studying this weekend because i can't get anything into my brain.
I totally screwed up my English paper. I shouldn't have daydream during th examination D:
I'm really nervous for Hml paper. Pfft!
I'm scared i will regret buying th hoodies i alrdy ordered frm F21 ):
I want to go on retail therapy.
I don't feel like going out tonight. But i want food :D

It doesn't concern you.

2008-04-23T18:24:00.004+08:00

I feel like screaming out loud but i don't anybody to hear me. Suddenly, i miss you, you and you.
Dang, i'm so emotional yet crazy these days. I don't even understand myself.
I don't know what i really want. I don't know why i got so emotional over th littlest things.
Th things that i've always wanted to say never seem to come out from my mouth.
Things have been pretty much horrible for me.
Sometimes, i feel so small.
Even th littlest things that people say make me ponder on it.
I think i just need a break.

I feel like switching to livejournal/xanga.
But i still haven't find th time to explore it.

Sorry for this crappy post.

I had the sudden urge to blog.

2008-04-20T18:28:00.004+08:00

Maths is making me insane ):
I don't miss school at all but tomorrow is Monday again ):
I miss th rain ):
I also miss all the Limoes ):

My first paper will be this coming Friday ):
I'm very worried for my HML paper because if we don't get at least B3, Cikgu Nora will make us go to the Express Malay class ):
Cikgu Nora also said that th paper is very difficult and after doing last year's paper (very hard!), I'm not confident of getting a B3 ):

I can't seem to get any right answer for th latest E-maths assignment ):
I feel so discouraged ):
I've done my revision for E-Maths 3A book :D
But there's still a lot more to go for Biology, Chemistry, A-Maths ):
I suck at every subject. I can't even get a distinction for SS/History when others could get it so easily ):
But, i fulfilled my promise because i've mugged very hard this week :D

I've got a feeling that tomorrow will suck.
Remedials till evening and religious class at night.
I hope there's not much homework tmr.

): ): ): ): ): ): ): ):!

Goodbye [:

2008-04-16T18:18:00.002+08:00

HAPPY 15TH BIRTHDAY
TO
DEAREST
NADHIRAH & HAFIZAH! :D

Sorry, i won't update here.
My life's so screwed up and i'm searching for some peace.
I don't know when I'll be back.
I don't see th point of blogging anymore.

Splendid Saturday

2008-04-12T17:27:00.003+08:00

The best part of th day was getting to know th PCH kids :D & also, seeing ___ from th bus. I swear i was smiling all the way. Only Pure knows how excited i was just now. I'm too exhausted, go and read other guide's or scout's blog to know more.

I'll mug hard next week. I promise.

take me back to the happy moments

2008-04-11T21:36:00.003+08:00

I spent my Friday evening in front of the television and sleeping like a pig on th sofa. I don't feel like doing CIP or study with Sof & Ruz (eventhough i initiated it) tomorrow. Hell yeah, i'm very fickle-minded and i can't decide. I wish i could get an MC so that i could skip tmr's CIP. I'm not willing to wake up at 6.30am on a Saturday.

I miss 2/5 and Mrs Ong terribly. I miss Kai Xin, Xiaofei, Yi Jie, Ruban, Tamil, Abirami, Soon Keng, Alessia, ChaoYan, Syahirah, Liyana, Koofang, Lilian, Mubin, Irwan. Did i miss out anybody? There's just too many of them. 3/6 is just so annoying. With Jeshua talking non-stop and acting like he knows about everything. Jackson and Kevin calling me insect (personal joke) when i don't feel like joking around. Maran smiling and blabbering non stop during lessons. Pfft, its just so different.

I have very terrible moodswing these days. Beware.

Why isnt there any pauses in life?

Have you ever feel like out of place?

2008-04-10T19:10:00.002+08:00

I think i've gained like so much weight! D:
My jeans is like super tight when i wore it just now. Pffft!
I've been eating like thrs no tomorrow -.-

Guess what! Guess what!
I dreamt about something so unexpecting!
He appeared in my dream last night eventhough he doesn't know me and i've never talk to him at all!
In th dream, we were like really best friends that we shared everything.
He's cute though. LOL LOL! :p
Nope, its not R (:

I got an A1 for my Malay Test :D
Really surprising for me. Hahaha!
Wtf, 5 Maths remedials for this 2 weeks.
Urghhhh! But nvm, i'll sacrifice ^_^

3/6 is getting so irritating. Such a nuisance sometimes.
Even Mr Alan Tan is fed up with us.
Urgh!

Reached home at 3 and ate. Then Pure msged me.
Went to meet her and ZhongYi at Lot :D
But his monster friend was with him. I felt so odd.
His friend looked v scary as if he wants to bite us -.-
So fat some more! HAHAHAHA! (ok sorry!)
I wished his other cuter friends were thr.
Anw, Zy was so kind!
He helped me to think of what to draw fr th conflict poster.
Thanks ah (:

Ah die die die!
Chem Test tmr and idk what to study!
Like thrs not much to study.
I chiong-ed my Conflict Poster. Did it on Photoshop but it was ugly. Whatever!
Instead of writing 'Conflict can cause death', i wrote 'Conflict is death'
-.- !
I'm so lazy to print again.

guilt

2008-04-09T18:43:00.005+08:00

I hate today because...

Firstly,

I totally screwed up my Malay Oral! D:
Cikgu Nora and Cikgu Fadilah burst out in laughter when i said "Nenek saya itu, panas baran orangnya!" I don't get whats so funny!
I got so distracted and nervous tht i was practically shaking my leg and playing with my nails all th time!
I wanted to end th conversation as fast as possible but cikgu kept asking me questions. Urgh!

Secondly,

Mdm Khamilia was very very angry with our class.
I'm scared that th way she treat us from now on will be different like how she used to.
I feel like asking th class to write a card and buy chocolates and give her. Haha!
I don't want th same thing to repeat like what happened in Sec 1!
I'm also kind of annoyed and angry at _____.
Seriously, i'm really scared that Mdm Khamilia would hate 3/6 like how Mrs Kumar hated 1/5'06 just because of one person.
I don't want that to happen. Omg, thinking of this make me hate _____ even more!

Thirdly,

I failed my A maths Test miserably with a pathetic score of 3 out of 25.
I really didn't expect that!
I lost all th marks because i didn't write my signs properly ):
Now, i feel like having tuition but i think its a little too late.

Fourthly,

I'm so fickle minded and i can't decide on which hoodies i want to order in Forever21.
I don't want to regret my decisions later on.

Fifthly,

WHY DOES EVERYTHING OUTSIDE TH WINDOW LOOKS SO YELLOWISH?!
Omg, this freaks me out!
Is it hari kiamat? AHHHH!
Okay phew! My dad say its going to rain la! So much for being paranoid! -.-

Sixth(ly),

I DON'T LIKE TH CLASS T-SHIRT DESIGN!
Its not that i don't want to cooperate. But, urgh! Idk how to explain this.
F those who voted for tht girl-boy animation pic. Its so not original.
Sorry, i didn't mean to hurt anybody's feelings. I just had to type this out.
I don't feel like buying but i will compromise and buy it.

Seventh(ly),

Ms Soh put Pure and me in charge of th CIP Games for th Pertapis Home. (AGAIN!)
Really, i'm tired. I miss th Sec 4s&5s D:
Urgh! Its not like i have a choice whether to do it or not.
Yes, i'm complaining. So what? I'm a lazy lazy bum!

Oh, i feel like typing this out.
I <3 Sofeana, Ruzanna, Fadee, Iman, Pure, Crystal, Nad, Zaf, Liyana, Mai and many more!
Hahaha, i know this is so random.

I hope for a better tomorrow :D

^_^

2008-04-08T17:03:00.003+08:00

I'm very very lazy today.

PE was so fun today! :D
We played basketball and we laughed our asses off at some silly acts.
Ruz's poor nose was hit by th ball. I hope its not crooked.
A maths test was what-the-bleah?!
I had no idea what th questions were asking for so i just wrote whatever i think its asking for :p
I daydreamed during Malay Test which caused me to rush to complete it.
I didn't study Peribahasa. So, i left 2 of th qns blank.
I went home straight away after school :D
Crystal asked me to go Library with her and Pure but she still hasn't called.
Perhaps, they changed plans.

I suddenly miss studying on the phone with Fadee and Weiming. We used to stay up till midnight during exam periods then we'll test each other. Hahaha!

I was so desperate to get help for my A maths last night tht i smsed so many ppl for help. Hahah!
Thanks Irwan and Jackson :D & also Soonkeng and Wm for offering some help (:

Oh, not forgetting.
Thank you so much to Alfi for helping me with my Malay assignment! :D
( i know i owe you chocolate.)

2008-04-07T17:43:00.003+08:00

I'm supposed to log off in 1 mins time cos i've got tons of things to do.

There was a sudden change in seating arrangement and i don't like it.
I hope its only for today cos i feel so suffocated sitting in th first row.
Mr Ng didn't come. So, yay ^_^
I run out of points to write during th SS Essay Writing Test ):
I hope i'll get at least a B4.
Maths was boring like forever.
Instead of listening to Mr Tan, i laughed my ass off looking at th way ____ sleeps in class.
English Oral wasn't that bad :D
But i was frigging nervous in th waiting room that i couldn't sit still.
Iman showed me some stupid videos otw home -.-
A-maths test tmr and i don't understand anything about th chapter!
'Masalah Pekerja Asing' WHAT TO WRITE?! I mean, idk how to put everything in words :/

everything reminds me of you ):
i shouldn't be saying this but i still hope to bump into you someday.

complain complain complain

2008-04-06T20:00:00.003+08:00

Okay, I've decided that i will just pay Ms Soh th balance out of my own pocket money. I think i'm responsible fr th loss of th money but i really really don't know whr did th money go! I mean, i didn't used th money for sure. And I don't know if th girls gave me th correct change or whatsoever. Urgh this is so frustrating! Ohmygosh! I just remembered tht i haven't collect th gadget poles tht we brought to Sarimbun from th Scouts Den. Okay, fck. I lost tht damn ppr which had th records of th things tht th Scouts borrowed frm us. Damn damn damn! Wtf, everythings just not right! Shut up, i know its my fault for being so careless and irresponsible. Ah, whatever. To make this whole matter worse, Ms Soh is such a naggy teacher whereby if things don't go th way she want it to be, she'll nag, complain, scold and all. I'm so sick of all these things and i promise myself i won't get involve in organising stuffs. Its so troublesome and i'm such a bad organiser and i prefer to just slack.

English Oral tmr and i'm so lucky to get Mr Khoo as my examiner. I heard he is very leniant :D But i hope he won't spit everywhr when he talks. Hahaha! Social Studies Test (SEQ) tmr. I'm so bad at elaborating. I hope i won't run out of ideas on what to write. There is a teacher cmg in to observe us during Maths lesson. Urgh, i won't be able to eat drg th class ):

Target of th Week: Stop spending money unnecessarily, stop getting hooked on a book, get home asap when school ends, don't waste time in school/shopping malls, don't use computer for more than 3 hrs every day, pay attention during lessons & START MUGGING!

There is a facial cleanser but why isn't thr such thing as heart cleanser?
Okay merepek.

Everythings just not right!

2008-04-05T17:45:00.003+08:00

Okay guess what?
I have to report to Ms Soh about th total expenditure of th party.
& after i calculated everything, we're short of money.
I mean, i'm like supposed to give her $10 plus but i only gave her $1.80
Dannnnnnng, idk whr's th rest of th money.
This just means tht i have to starve for at least 2 days next wk to pay her back.
Urgh, fck.

I studied Social Studies alrdy :D
Cousins came over but th house is so quiet.
Thrs only sounds of th keyboard.
If my youngest brother is here, i bet th house would be lively.
He'll be back tmr ^_^

Hello Boring Saturday

2008-04-05T11:33:00.002+08:00

Its 11.30 and i just woke up.
Smelly, whatever.

Its a Saturday so i bet everyone's out.
Hmt class is going fr th pementasan at idk whr.
It sounds so cool but i didn't go cos thrs an entrance fee and i don't want to ask my mum fr money again and again.
Sec 3 uses a lot of money ):
I don't like th feeling of asking money from my mum everytime she gets home.
Cos she's been working like crazy and here i am, finishing her money -.-

& I just got to know frm fadee tht i have to pay in cash fr my Sec 3 camp.
Bloody hell, money again.
Money is such a BIG BIG issue in my life lately.

Shut up, i know MYE is coming and i'm still slacking, not revising anything at all and i've been leaving most of my books in my locker and i'm always hook on a book/computer.
Urghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!

Sister is starting school again starting next wk.
Which means tht i can't use her lappy anymore when i get home.
2 other computers are always used by both brothers. And th other lappy is fugging slow tht i don't want to use it unless i'm desperate.
So, i hope this would help me to start mugging my ass off.

I'll be staying at home today to study and i hope it rains outside.
I miss staying under th rain during Jogathon.

snap snap snap

2008-04-04T21:38:00.002+08:00

Ms Soh bought it fr us. How sweeeeet! :D

Told you it was more than enough!

Liza ^^

Candid >.<

LOL!

Guides '08. (nt complete though)

I took this secretly. Hah

I was perspiring thats why my hair was so messy -.-

Nurul, this crappppppy girl!

Shiyun, Company Leader (:

Atikah, Atiqah. Hehehe

Hidayah, Diyanah [;

Nurul started all this!

Malay girls ^.^

Guides '08

Graduating Guides

Thanks to Shiyun and Geraldine. Its really really sweeeeet (: